Clothed with Scarlet

2012-02-05T19:13:00.000-08:00

Watched this film tonight:

It is good--half movie, half documentary, and has a few quotes from Spurgeon and his sermons. "Look and live"--what a wonderful, simple truth! Jesus, if we are His, has paid it all!

Randomly, here are a few recent photos I took from the first month of 2012.

Jan. 7 - A walk with friends

Jan.11 - A painting I was working on (done, now!)

Jan. 15 - Some odd sort of sheep (at least the one on the left is odd!)

Jan. 17 - Looking at God's beautiful creation on a walk

Jan. 17 - Looking at God's beautiful, fascinating creation on a walk

Jan. 19 - Light

Quote

2012-01-15T20:26:00.000-08:00

From The Treasury of David by Spurgeon, Psalm 39:6.

Verse 6. Surely every man walketh in a vain shew. Life is but a passing pageant. This alone is sure, that nothing is sure. All around us shadows mock us; we walk among them, and too many live for them as if the mocking images were substantial; acting their borrowed parts with zeal fit only to be spent on realities, and lost upon the phantoms of this passing scene. Worldly men walk like travellers in a mirage, deluded, duped, deceived, soon to be filled with disappointment and despair. Surely they are disquieted in vain. Men fret, and fume, and worry, and all for mere nothing. They are shadows pursuing shadows, while death pursues them. He who toils and contrives, and wearies himself for gold, for fame, for rank, even if he wins his desire, finds at the end of his labour lost; for like the treasure of the miser's dream, it all vanishes when the man awakes in the world of reality. Read well this text, and then listen to the clamour of the market, the hum of the exchange, the din of the city streets, and remember that all this noise (for so the word means), this breach of quiet, is made about unsubstantial, fleeting vanities. Broken rest, anxious fear, over worked brain, failing mind, lunacy, these are the steps in the process of disquieting with many, and all to be rich, or, in other words, to load one's self with the thick clay; clay, too, which a man must leave so soon. He heapeth up riches, and knoweth not who shall gather them. He misses often the result of his ventures, for there are many slips between the cup and the lips. His wheat is sheaved, but an interloping robber bears it away—as often happens with the poor Eastern husbandman; or, the wheat is even stored, but the invader feasts thereon. Many work for others all unknown to them. Especially does this verse refer to those all gathering muckrakes, who in due time are succeeded by all scattering forks, which scatter riches as profusely as their sires gathered them parsimoniously. We know not our heirs, for our children die, and strangers fill the old ancestral halls; estates change hands, and entail, though riveted with a thousand bonds, yields to the corroding power of time. Men rise up early and sit up late to build a house, and then the stranger tramps along its passages, laughs in its chambers, and forgetful of its first builder, calls it all his own. Here is one of the evils under the sun for which no remedy can be prescribed.

IndoctriNation

2012-01-14T08:40:00.000-08:00

IndoctriNation Trailer from IndoctriNation on Vimeo.

We watched this film recently and I highly recommend it. It shows some of the serious problems with public schools via interviews, court cases, and facts. Some of it may shock you. Please watch and support this film!

Homemaking Poems

2012-01-06T09:55:00.000-08:00

A Homemaker's Prayer
by Melissa M.
1-6-12

Let me be a homemaker,
Not a homebreaker....
Let me never dread
Sweeping cobwebs overhead
Or polishing panes distressed
'Til they look their shiny best.
Let me delight to see
The counters clean and free
As often as the sun
Makes its glad upward run.
Let me cook with flair
And, yes, bathe all in prayer.
Let not a shrill, rash word
From my mouth ever be heard,
But may words of wisdom and grace
Always take their place.
A million little tasks,
Whatever my mother asks,
Are not so small after all
When done to honor the Creator of all.

~

And this one is a little rougher, but still has some good points. Maybe I need to work on it some more.
It could easily be misunderstood; I know there is much more a homemaker can do than just cleaning and cooking. I meant that the home should be our main focus and sphere, and fame is not what we should be seeking for. (To be discreet, chaste, keepers at home, good, obedient to their own husbands, that the word of God be not blasphemed. - Titus 2:5)

Keeper at Home
1-4-12

My hands are soapy,
Spattered with crumbs.
A thousand stains
Return each night and day.
I sigh and think
Of building bridges,
Of speeches grand
And polished words
Written 'neath covers gold.
Of mission huts
In tribal lands,
And sculptures of heroic bands.
Yet where would all that
Leave the home? I ask.
Wounded knees would
Remain unpatched.
Kitchen and tub
And floors unmatched
In dirt anywhere world-wide.
I'd bounce from place to place,
Yet have no coming home,
No lived-in nooks,
No loving looks,
No neatness or flourish.
Do these matter in spite of it all?
Does the daily grind at home
Make up a job as important
As others?
Just ask the ones
Whose mothers prayed
And wept and played
And sang and stayed
And bought and made
And never complained,
Always sought good and right.
Was it worth the fight?
My mother is such,
And where would I be
Without her sweet touch
Of diligence and love?
She bravely went on,
Followed husband's lead
As if solemnly decreed...
Perhaps it was, indeed.
My hands are slimy,
Covered in grime.
Is it worth my time?
I'll let you answer this time.

Quotes from The Treasury of David

2012-01-03T09:38:00.000-08:00

I decided this year I'd definitely try to finish reading the first volume of The Treasury of David, and upon looking at where I had been several months ago, I discovered some more gems, some which I had gone by without sharing. Psalm 37 and these comments were just what my fretful self needed--my own personal gift from God! May they bless you, as well.

Trust in the LORD, and do good; so shalt thou dwell in the land, and verily shalt be fed. - Psalm 37:3

'Faith cures fretting. Sight is cross-eyed, and views things only as they seem, hence her envy; faith has clearer optics to behold things as they really are, hence her peace.'

'Very much of our outward depends upon the inward; where there is heaven in the heart there will be heaven in the house.'

Rest in the LORD, and wait patiently for him: fret not thyself because of him who prospereth in his way, because of the man who bringeth wicked devices to pass. - Psalm 37:7

'Determine, let the wicked succeed as they may, that you will treat the matter with indifference, and never allow a question to be raised as to the righteousness and goodness of the Lord. What if wicked devices succeed and your own plans are defeated! there is more of the love of God in your defeats than in the successes of the wicked.'

Wait on the LORD, and keep his way, and he shall exalt thee to inherit the land: when the wicked are cut off, thou shalt see it.

"Wait on the Lord." We have here the eighth precept, and it is a lofty eminence to attain to. Tarry the Lord's leisure. Wait in obedience as a servant, in hope as an heir, in expectation as a believer. This little word "wait" is easy to say, but hard to carry out, yet faith must do it. "And keep his way." Continue in the narrow path; let no haste for riches or ease cause unholy action. Let your motto be, "On, on, on," Never flag, or dream of turning aside. "He that endureth to the end, the same shall be saved." "And he shall exalt thee to inherit the land." Thou shalt have all of earthly good which is really good, and of heavenly good there shall be no stint.'

Mark the perfect man, and behold the upright: for the end of that man is peace.

'With believers it may rain in the morning, thunder at midday, and pour in torrents in the afternoon, but it must clear up ere the sun goes down. War may last till our last hour, but then we shall hear the last of it.'

Ten P's In a Pod - Book Review

2011-12-19T13:03:00.000-08:00

Link to Vision Forum product review.

Link to Amazon product review.

We received this book as a gift from a sweet friend. My sister, Annie, and brother, Andrew, read it together with me, and we really enjoyed it (sometimes my mom got in on the readings, too). It is the true story of a unique family who travels together, sings together, prays together...and they make the Word of God a big part of their day, from which they reap rich spiritual rewards. It is an inspiring, convicting, and often humorous book for the whole family. (There are some fun and quirky illustrations, too.) Read for yourself!

Poll Results...

2011-12-16T20:34:00.000-08:00

Do you celebrate Halloween? Yes	0(0%)
No	1(14%)
Not since I was a child	2(28%)
Only an alternate version, such as a Harvest party	0(0%)
No, because of the pagan elements	4(57%)

If you're curious, I voted no because of the pagan elements, including the fascination with the occult and blood and scary things--all this I believe influences children to see these things as "cool" or "fun."

Next poll is similar, only on Christmas.

Homekeeping Book & Magazine Giveaway

2011-11-27T11:04:00.001-08:00

There is a giveaway going on here, for a book and The King's Blooming Rose magazine subscription! Deadline for entry is Dec. 5.

Stepping Heavenward - Book Review

2011-11-27T10:16:00.001-08:00

Written in 1869, this is a fictional journal of a young woman--her beginning, doubts, disobedience, growth, marriage, difficult in-laws, children, and her older days--and is still pertinent to women today.

It's good to read a book (the second time) in which the main character, at least in the main, listens to and learns from her mother and other older and wiser people. The main character has a lot of flaws, yet she wants to please God, and slowly grows. I can relate to many of her struggles, so I find it interesting and helpful. No perfect books can be found, except the Bible in its original language, but I still think this is a book worthy of five stars, or maybe four and a half.

The author, Elizabeth Prentiss, also penned the famous hymn, "More Love to Thee, O Christ."

Quotes from the Story:

'Our course heavenward is like the plan of the zealous pilgrim of old, who for every three steps forward, took one backward.'

'The question is not whether you ever gave yourself to God, but whether you are His now.'

'She says I shall now have one mouth the more to fill and two feet the more to shoe, more disturbed nights, more laborious days, and less leisure or visiting, reading, music, and drawing.
Well! This is one side of the story, to be sure, but I look at the other. Here is a sweet, fragrant mouth to kiss; here are two more feet to make music with their pattering about my nursery. Here is a soul to train for God; and the body in which it dwells is worth all it will cost, since it is the abode of a kingly tenant. I may see less of friends, but I have gained one dearer than them all, to whom, while I minister in Christ's name, I make a willing sacrifice of what little leisure for my own recreation my other darlings had left me. Yes, my precious baby, you are welcome to your mother's heart, welcome to her time, her strength, her health, her tenderest cares, to her lifelong prayers! Oh, how rich I am, how truly, how wondrously blest!'

'This is the testimony of all the good books, sermons, hymns, and memoirs I read--that God's ways are infinitely perfect; that we are to love Him for what He is and therefore equally as much when He afflicts as when He prospers us; that there is no real happiness but in doing and suffering His will; and that this life is but a scene of probation through which we pass to the real life above.'

'People ask me how it happens that my children are all so promptly obedient and so happy. As if it chanced that some parents have such children or chanced that some have not! I am afraid it is only too true, as someone has remarked, that "this is the age of obedient parents!" What then will be the future of their children? How can they yield to God who have never been taught to yield to human authority? And how well fitted will they be to rule their own households who have never learned to rule themselves?'

Count Your Many Blessings

2011-11-16T13:32:00.001-08:00

Nothing can compare with this Book, yet sometimes we take it for granted. It has always been there, the Book that we love . . . yet do we? May it be so! What a wonder it is to have survived, and what a wonder to know it is the inspired Word of God, applicable to our modern-day lives!

Tea...birds...cozy blankets. Little gifts from God that are especially enjoyable this time of year.

A well-stocked bookshelf is much appreciated. I need to weed out some of my old, yesteryear-loved books that are not so brilliant as I once thought, but I am blessed by having gotten some good deals and having some great old books from my dear father. (This is not my bookshelf in the photo, by the way.)

We have an abundance of deer around our place, and they are so interesting and fun to watch, especially when the little fawns are running around!

There are so many more things I am thankful for...
The great grace of God
A wonderful church family and messages
Family
Letters from far off friends
Sunsets
Nieces and nephews
Paint and art
Reliable transportation
Freedom of speech, etc.
Family coming for Thanksgiving...

What are you thankful for?

The Tehran Initiative

2011-11-14T16:02:00.001-08:00

David Shirazi is on a big mission for the CIA--To enter Iran once again, find information on the nuclear weapons the Iranians are building, and stop a possible war.

This novel continues where the previous one, The Twelfth Imam, leaves off, yet it would be understandable even without reading the prequel, as a segment of the previous novel is included, and various recaps are offered throughout the book. However, reading the prequel does offer further character development.

I read this book in three days, which is probably a record for me with a book this big. There were parts of the book that were a little tedious and boring for me (political speeches, etc.), but most of the time it was hard to put down, and easy enough to understand for a layperson like me. There is some violence and torture, so if you are squeamish, or don't believe in such things, you might not like this.

I like that this book is based on some truth, and that it inspires us to speak out for the faith and be concerned for the souls of others.

There are a few things I didn't like, such as the appearance of Jesus, though at least His words were in keeping with the Bible (basically direct quotes). I don't believe Jesus will come to earth again until after the tribulation (and in the air before the tribulation). I also wondered at the use of deception/lies in some cases, though the characters were admittedly sorry to have to deceive their family/friends. During wartime/espionage, I think I can go along with deceiving, which is what was usually the case in this story.

All in all, I enjoyed the book. It made me think more about the world around me, not just my little corner of the world, and the possible future. I look forward to the sequel.

I was given a complimentary copy by Tyndale Publishers, and I have given my honest review.

watch on tyndale.com

An interview with Joel C. Rosenberg
author of The Tehran Initiative

1) This is the second book with CIA operative David Shirazi. Where does the story pick up from your previous bestseller The Twelfth Imam?

A: The Tehran Initiative begins about sixty seconds after The Twelfth Imam leaves off. I’ve tried to create a near seamless connection between the two. And there’s another book coming, The Damascus Countdown.

2) You started writing The Tehran Initiative when the Arab Spring began earlier this year. Did events impact your writing or the storyline?
A: Actually, I was well into writing The Tehran Initiative when the “Arab Spring” began and it was a little eerie because the novel opens with the assassination of the President of Egypt and Egypt descending into chaos after the leader’s fall. Fortunately, Egyptian President Hosni Mubarak wasn’t killed, but he certainly fell quickly and somewhat unexpectedly and Egypt is still reeling from the aftermath. The novel really focuses a great deal on the intense desire amongst many Muslims in the Middle East and North Africa to build a global Islamic empire, or a “caliphate.” And that’s certainly a growing theme among the Islamists in the region this year.

Perhaps what struck me most curious since the publication of The Twelfth Imam and while I was researching and writing The Tehran Initiative is that the so-called Supreme Leader of Iran, the Ayatollah Ali Khamenei, has began speaking more publicly about the coming of the Twelfth Imam. He used to be silent, or nearly so, on this subject. He let President Ahmadinejad do all the public talking about Shia End Times theology. But Khamenei has become more bold over the past year or so. He has told people that he has met personally with the Twelfth Imam, though we don’t know what he meant. Did he meet with a flesh and blood person? Did he see a dream? Or a vision? We don’t know. But Khamenei has also asserted that he is the personal representative on earth of the Twelfth Imam, as well as the so-called Prophet Muhammad. These developments – along with his support for Iran’s aggressive nuclear development program – suggest Khamenei senses the time is very short before someone claiming to be the Twelfth Imam emerges publicly. In part, that’s why the Iranian government released the pseudo-documentary film in early 2011 called, “The Coming Is Near,” about all the geopolitical signs that they believe are indicators that the Mahdi’s arrival is increasingly close at hand. Whether it will really happen or not remains to be seen. But the Iranian leadership is certainly convinced. Most of them, anyway. And, of course, the Bible tells us in Matthew chapter twenty-four to expect false prophets and false messiahs in the last days. So we can’t rule out the possibility that we’ll actually see false messiah emerge from the Shia world.

3) You’ve earned a reputation of writing stories that seemed ripped from tomorrow’s headlines. What is going on in The Tehran Initiative that we can see unfolding in the news?

A: I think the biggest parallel between The Tehran Initiative and current events is the growing sense amongst Shia Muslim leaders – particularly in Iran – that the Twelfth Imam is coming any moment, coupled with Iran’s feverish efforts to build nuclear weapons, and the Israelis’ growing isolation in the world and feeling that they may have to hit Iran all by themselves.

Did you see Iranian President Mahmoud Ahmadinejad’s apocalyptic address at the U.N. in September, or read the full text? You should. It’s instructive. Ahmadinejad is not a world leader worthy of the world stage. He is the evil leader of an Iranian death cult. A recent U.N. report indicates he is making progress in building nuclear weapons. He is calling for the arrival of the Twelfth Imam and wiping Israel “off the map.” He aspires to be a mass murderer beyond the scale of Adolf Hitler. He deserves to be in prison, or an insane asylum. His U.N. speech was further proof, if more was needed.

Like Hitler’s speeches in Germany in the 1920s and 1930s, Ahmadinejad isn’t hiding what he believes. He’s pretty clear. He denied the Holocaust. He blasted the U.S. for bringing Osama Bin Laden to justice. He blamed the terrorist attacks 9/11 on the U.S. government. He insisted that his so-called messiah known as “Imam al-Mahdi” or the Twelfth Imam is coming soon. He insisted Jesus Christ will come with the Mahdi to take over the world. He called for a one-world government when he called for “the shared and collective management of the world.”

Consider these excerpts: “This movement is certainly on its rightful path of creation, ensuring a promising future for humanity. A future that will be built when humanity initiates to tread the path of the divine prophets and the righteous under the leadership of Imam al-Mahdi, the Ultimate Savior of mankind and the inheritor to all divine messengers and leaders and to the pure generation of our great Prophet. The creation of a supreme and ideal society with the arrival of a perfect human being who is a true and sincere lover of all human beings, is the guaranteed promise of Allah. He will come alongside with Jesus Christ to lead the freedom and justice lovers to eradicate tyranny and discrimination, and promote knowledge, peace, justice, freedom and love across the world. He will present to every single individual all the beauties of the world and all good things which bring happiness for humankind.”

Though most world leaders do not appear to understand what Ahmadinejad is really saying, students of Shia Islamic eschatology or End Times theology do. The Iranian leader believes the end of the world as we have known it is increasingly close at hand. He believes the time for establishing an Islamic caliphate or global government ruled by the Mahdi is rapidly approaching. What’s more, he believes that the way to hasten the coming of the Twelfth Imam is to acquire nuclear weapons and use them to annihilate the United States, which he calls the “Great Satan” and Israel, which he calls the “Little Satan.”

Israeli Prime Minister Benjamin Netanyahu understands what Ahmadinejad means. So do some of his top military advisors. That’s why they believe Iran is in the eye of a gathering storm in the Middle East, and that the chance of a major war is growing.

“Iran has not abandoned its nuclear program. The opposite is true; it continues full steam ahead,” warned Israeli Defense Forces Home Front Command Chief Major General Eyal Eisenberg in a speech earlier this month. Also noting recent uprisings in the Arab world and growing tensions with Turkey, Eisenberg said, “This leads us to the conclusion that…the likelihood of an all-out war is increasingly growing.”

To me, all this feels ripped from the pages of The Tehran Initiative. Unfortunately, it’s all true.

4) Readers seem to get very attached to your characters. What goes into creating the characters in your novels?

A: It’s the Colonel’s secret recipe of seven herbs and spices. I could tell you, but then I’d have to….well, never mind….no comment to that one.

5) What experiences in your real life do you draw from to piece together these novels that incorporate geo-politics, espionage, romance, and Bible prophecy?

A: Someone once told me, “Write where you live in your head.” For some reason, that advice resonated with me and stuck. I’m fascinated with politics, prophecy and the Middle East. Living in Washington, D.C. and working in and around the political world for the past two decades has certainly helped provide context for me to write political thrillers. I think traveling extensively throughout the Middle East and North Africa has been helpful, too. Somehow, it’s all worked together in a way some people find as interesting as I do.

6) You often incorporate Old Testament prophecy in your books. What scriptures do you draw from for this book and why?

A: There’s no question that I am absolutely intrigued by Bible prophecy, and I like to start with an End Times prophecy – or a group of last days prophecies – and ask, “What if these were to happen in my lifetime? What would it look like? What would it feel like? How might such prophecies realistically be set into motion, and what might be the implications of their fulfillment?” That’s how I approach writing these books. But I don’t think of it like writing a fantasy novel or science fiction. I’m genuinely trying to imagine how it could really play out? I’m not saying these prophecies will necessarily come to pass the way I envision them, but they are interest to war game and see what happens. And given what’s happening in the real world today, I think readers are as curious as I am, and somehow my plots don’t feel that far-fetched.

7) You’ve been successful with your non-fiction books Epicenter and Inside the Revolution and you have a large following reading your analysis of Middle East events on your blog and e-newsletter “Flash Traffic.” Why do you continue to choose writing novels about the Middle East?

A: What could be more interesting? Presidents and presidential candidates constantly focus on the Middle East. Prime Ministers do. Kings do. Generals do. The media does. The economists do. The fact is, the eyes of the nations are riveted on Israel and her neighbors, the epicenter of the momentous events that are shaking our world and shaping our future. The stakes are very high. There is lots of uncertainty. It’s mysterious and dangerous and complex – it has all the elements of riveting political thrillers. And the Bible says the Middle East will become even more dramatic until the very return of Jesus Christ. Why write about anything else?

(Interview provided by Tyndale.)

Another Little Poem

2011-11-01T14:01:00.000-07:00

When our hearts condemn us,
Is it truly condemning,
When we refute
The condemnation of others?

Pride lingers still.

Let rebuke come!
If we love the Lord
We should patiently take it.

Stubborn is my will.

A Little Poem

2011-11-01T08:47:00.000-07:00

Glimpses of truth
In stages
Some through living,
And some through pages.

Stumbling is what
Babies do,
And yet each step
Is awesome and new.

God is the giver
Of strength.
We will see Him
As He is, at length!

-M.A.M. 11/1/11

Poll Results...Look for New Poll on Sidebar

2011-10-20T11:55:00.000-07:00

Do you find making schedules and/or menus is helpful? Yes	3(33%)
No	0(0%)
Sometimes	5(55%)
Never tried it	0(0%)
Schedules are especially helpful	2(22%)
Menus are especially helpful	2(22%)

Links

2011-10-11T15:11:00.001-07:00

Our friend, Sophia, wrote this lovely post about family and young womanhood. Please check it out! What is a Girl to Do?

Also, this article has inspired me/convicted me.

Scientific Validity of the Bible

2011-10-06T12:39:00.001-07:00

Read my brother's fascinating article for this and more: http://thebiblicalway.blogspot.com/2011/10/expansion-of-universe-there-are-number.html

In Memory of My Dad

2011-09-09T10:28:00.001-07:00

Five years ago today my dad passed from this country into the heavenly country.
We miss him, yet we know he is far better above, and this is all a part of God's perfect plan.

"The very thought of a holy and all powerful God to Whom they had to give an account was something which they could not stomach. And when we say "man" or "they," we are surely saying you and I. We must repent of the folly and wickedness of denying God and rebelling against that light and resisting His will." - Keith M.

"You are not going to see yourself as you really are until you see God as He is.
You are not going to see how low you have fallen until you see how high God is." - Keith M.

As my sister, Annie, wrote:
"He [was] a husband, father of eight, preacher, homeschool parent (when he knew none personally), and more. I remember how he taught us faithfully and eagerly, the sacrifices he made for us, how we did things together like biking and talking as we rode along, how he listened to my concerns and offered advice, prayed with me, encouraged me, and gave books when he saw I had an interest in something, or he wanted to teach me something—usually the deepest lessons. I love him for all of these things. And miss him—five years ago last Saturday was his home-coming."

I add my hearty assent to that! He was not perfect, and would have readily agreed to that, but he was a parent who truly cared about us, and he loved the Lord above all.

My dad and me, c. 1984

Dad, Mom, Grace, Matthew, and John

Dad holding Annie, Mom holding Mark...John, Grace, and Matthew

Dad at work in FL

Giveaway

2011-09-09T09:08:00.000-07:00

There's a modest skirt giveaway going on here! It closes on September 16.

Links!

2011-08-05T09:30:00.000-07:00

Western Conservatory is giving away a free subscription to their webinar on marrying well! With a wide range of topics, including the deadly danger of worry and maintaining peace and harmony between families, you will certainly find something to address your questions. To enter, go HERE and follow instructions.

Here are some limited-time-only online films that I recommend:

Divided - http://www.dividedthemovie.com/

Why are we seeing so many young people leaving the church? Are youth groups helping or hindering? This is an important film examining what is going on and what we can do about it.

Burzynski - http://articles.mercola.com/sites/articles/archive/2011/06/11/burzynski-the-movie.asp

Mr. Burzynski discovered an amazing cancer treatment, but instead of helping to spread the good news, the FDA has done all they could to stop him. If you don't have time to watch the whole thing, please just watch the first 15 minutes. Believe me, it is worth your time.

Poll Update

2011-08-05T07:40:00.000-07:00

Have you ever talked with/heard anyone talk about their experiences in a war, and if so, which one/s? No	2 (15%)
I haven't known anyone who was in a war.	0 (0%)
WWI	1 (7%)
WWII	7 (53%)
Cold War	1 (7%)
Korean	4 (30%)
Vietnam	6 (46%)
Iraq	7 (53%)
Other Next poll is up!

A Review of Courageous - The Novel

2011-07-28T13:02:00.000-07:00

Sometimes a novel can be nearly as powerful as a sermon, and for me this was one of those times. It isn't a perfect book, but it caused me to really think about how much (or how little) time I spend with my family, what the outcomes of my choices might be, and inspired me to want to witness to others more and study my Bible more. There are some mature elements (violence, drug content, etc.), but this is primarily a book for fathers and perhaps for teens in trouble. There were also some moments of humor, though one of them which involved deception seemed on the questionable side to me--laugh-aloud funny, but rather unnecessary. Overall it was a fast-paced book for me. The characters could have been developed more clearly or at length, I think. I hope fathers read this and are truly inspired to change their priorities. Fathers are very important, not to mention the other parts of a family!

I received a complimentary copy of this book from Tyndale House Publishers in exchange for my honest review.

For His Glory

2011-07-20T16:09:00.000-07:00

For His glory, His alone,
May my light shine day by day.
We are called to work and pray,
For His glory, His alone.

No good works for sin atone,
Jesus' work our sin effaced!
So we thank Him for His grace,
For His glory, His alone.

Leaning on God's strength alone,
Humbly let us own Him King.
He's the One who bids us sing
For His glory, His alone.

Joy to serve, with not a moan--
When on His love we rely,
Our hearts with sweet cheer reply,
For His glory, His alone.

-M.A.M. (7-20-11)
John Piper said it better in this sermon. I'd encourage a listen.

Patience

2011-07-17T09:29:00.000-07:00

Not the most unique/original metaphors here, I suppose, but I hope you enjoy and are encouraged by this little poem, which was written for myself, mainly.

"Patience," said the old oak tree.
"Soon, little acorn, you'll be big like me."
"You'll have to dig up through the dirt.
It'll take some work, but then up you'll spurt.
Look up to the sun and drink it in,
And take some showers till you're quenched within."

"But, oh! It will be so hard to wait!
The trees tower o'er me and I feel so late."

"Do all that you can not to stay in the shade.
Stretch out your leaves and don't be afraid.
The more you take in the faster you'll grow.
Thank God for each inch; shake the bugs off below.
God knows every season, they're in His command,
So trust in His wise, omnipotent hand!"

-M.A.M. (7-16-11)

TSA Invasion of Privacy

2011-06-16T15:35:00.000-07:00

TSA is supposed to keep us safe, yet their invasion of privacy goes against our God-given and Constitutional rights. There are a number of people here in TX who are fighting against them by trying to pass a bill against the "advanced pat-down," or groping. Please be in prayer on this and possibly write or call! It could be a huge opening for other states to follow suit, and would be a major blessing for us here.

A dear, sweet woman from our church has recently had some run-ins with the TSA. Please read and imagine how that would feel. Perhaps you've had similar things happen to you.

1st Personal TSA Story (It is not graphic at all.)

Here is a site where you can find more info on how to help in the cause: TSA Tyranny - Keep Austin Free

A Thousand Blessings - Poem

2011-05-27T17:18:00.000-07:00

5-27-11
Inspired by reading Psalm 105

The Lord delivered Israel
Across the deep Red Sea.
You dare to doubt and wonder,
"What has He done for me?"
Has He not parted you from
The burden of your sin?
Has He not given His
Holy Spirit within?
The Lord delivered David
From the dread giant's hand.
You dare to doubt and wonder,
"Have I seen things so grand?"
Has God not rescued you from
The devil's awful hold?
Has He not oft revived you
When you had grown quite cold?
And shall I remind you, too,
Of sorrows swept away?
Or how the Lord supplies you
With strength for each new day?
He chastens and corrects us,
As with Israel of old--
A thousand other blessings
Have I still left untold!

How to Die Like a Christian Man

2011-05-26T13:15:00.000-07:00

Please read this article on WWII veterans and their sacrifice and love for God, family, and country!

Also consider being a part of their online tour--I'm sure it will be a blessing and great learning tool.

Poll Results, New Poll

2011-05-26T13:04:00.000-07:00

Do you prefer e-mail or "snail" mail? Snail mail!	1 (7%)
Either one, as long as it's personal!	4 (30%)
Snail mail to receive, e-mail to send.	5 (38%)
E-mail to receive, snail mail to send.	0 (0%)
E-mail for non-personal, snail mail for personal mail.	5 (38%)

And a new poll is up!

Strength for Today...

2011-05-16T11:57:00.000-07:00

"Commit thy way unto the LORD; trust also in Him, and He shall bring it to pass." - Psalm 37:5 'Roll the whole burden of life upon the Lord. Leave with Jehovah not thy present fretfulness merely, but all thy cares; in fact, submit the whole tenor of thy way to him. Cast away anxiety, resign thy will, submit thy judgment, leave all with the God of all.' - Charles Spurgeon, The Treasury of David

Psalm 33:16-17

2011-05-14T20:00:00.001-07:00

Psalm 33:13-15

2011-05-13T13:57:00.001-07:00

Psalm 33:10-12

2011-05-12T10:37:00.000-07:00

A Mother's Place

2011-05-08T20:44:00.001-07:00

A mother's place
Is in the home,
Watching o'er the
Ways of her own;
To work and care,
Provide and teach,
Extend her hand
Far as can reach.

A mother's words
Are wise and kind,
Her children all
Are on her mind.
She fears the LORD
More than can say,
And we all praise
Her on this day!

-Melissa M., with love to her mom
(Based on Proverbs 31)

Psalm 33:4-9

2011-05-06T15:21:00.001-07:00

Psalm 33:1-3

2011-05-05T17:16:00.001-07:00

I've been memorizing this psalm, so I thought making some graphics for it might help me.
Hope you enjoy it, too!

Important Links and Quotes

2011-05-01T16:56:00.000-07:00

I'm sure you are all aware of the devastation from the tornadoes in AL and elsewhere. But perhaps you are not aware of how you can physically help (prayers are always appreciated)! Here is a site for donations to be given. And here is more info about their stories. Please consider their plight--how you would feel in such a situation--and how we as brethren should be helping!

I'm also hoping that this cause will be funded before the deadline runs out in 6 days! It is for WWII veterans. We never know if this will be used for their salvation, or how it will edify others.

And lastly, here are some good quotes from Spurgeon (you can find them in the book Humility and How to Get It)....

'As to our own experience of trial and of delivering mercy, it is sent for our good, and we should endeavour to profit to the utmost by it: but it was never intended that it should end with our private and personal benefit. In the kingdom of God no man liveth unto himself. We are bound to comfort others by the comfort wherewith the Lord hath comforted us. We are under solemn obligation to seek out mourners, and such as are in tried circumstances, that we may communicate to them the cheering testimony which we are able personally to bear to the love and faithfulness of God. Our Lord has handed out to us spiritual riches of joy that we may communicate thereof to others who are in need of consolation through great tribulation.'

'Do not think less of the believer who says, "My experience is only this:--
'I'm a poor sinner, and nothing at all,
But Jesus Christ is my all in all.' " '

'I find written in the infallible Book that if I trust the Lord Jesus He will perform His office of Saviour upon me. I have trusted Him, and He has saved me. "Is that all the witness you have?" says one. What more witness do I want? I may be able to mention certain incidents which attend my conversion; but these are not my hope. I place no reliance upon what I have thought, or seen, or felt. If anybody could prove that I never saw, and never felt, and never heard anything of the kind, I should not be troubled about it, for one thing I know--I know that I heard that text, "Look unto Me, and be ye saved, all the ends of the earth"; and I did look, and I was saved. What is more, if I did not then look, and was not then saved, I do not care twopence to contest the point, for I am looking now, and therefore I am saved. That is the comfort: we have not to rely on past faith, but still to go on believing. Looking unto Jesus ever; coming to Him always: that is the true position for peace.'

The Portable Patriot Review

2011-04-26T08:45:00.000-07:00

This book took me almost a year to read, but it was a valuable read.

First of all, I have to say that I love the design of the book. It may seem a small thing, but it made the book more readable to me. It's a small hardcover book, with a smooth cover, cloth binding, attractive fonts, rough page edges, and a few illustrations throughout. There are even the signatures of the Declaration of Independence signers in the front and back, which helps bring the people and the times alive.

Secondly, the passages were well chosen with a variety of kinds of documents, including sermons and poems, which I enjoyed. I am not at all a legal mind and don't know much about politics, so some of the documents were hard for me to wade through and understand, but with patience and concentration, I did get something out of most selections.

I was impressed with the far-reaching foresight some of the men of that day had.

I was challenged to learn more of the history of America and to help keep the original goals of the country alive.

Here are a few inspiring and insightful quotes from Noah Webster:

"The consideration, also, that the intended effects of a free government, are mostly defeated by an abuse of its privileges, should make us more solicitous to acquire a deep and correct knowledge of its true principles, and more vigilant in guarding against the impositions of designing men. . . . men who seek offices by fair promises, and flatter only to deceive."

"Let them consider that upon them has devolved the task of defending and improving the rich inheritance, purchased by their fathers. Nor let them view this inheritance of National Freedom and Independence, as a fortune that is to be squandered away, in ease and riot, but as an estate to be preserved only by industry, toil, and vigilance. Let them cast their eyes around upon the aged fathers of the land, whose declining strength calls for their support, and whose venerable years and wisdom demand their deference and respect."

I was given this book for free by booksneeze.com in exchange for a fair and honest review. Thanks!

Poll Results

2011-04-25T13:43:00.000-07:00

Here are the results from the last poll (what time do you normally go to bed):

8:00-9:00 PM	1 (4%)
9:00-10:00 PM	6 (24%)
10:00-11:00 PM	4 (16%)
11:00 PM-12:00 AM	7 (28%)
12:00-1:00 AM	2 (8%)
1:00-2:00 AM	4 (16%)
2:00-3:00 AM	0 (0%)
3:00-4:00 AM	1 (4%)
I work a night shift and sleep in the day.	0 (0%)

Why did I choose such a question? I guess I was curious to see if I was the only night owl. ;) I'm trying to do better, but it's so hard....

And there's a new poll up!

Springtime!

2011-04-23T10:38:00.001-07:00

Springtime! by hismercysurrounding

Hope in God

2011-04-13T20:09:00.000-07:00

by Melissa M.
4-13-11

Balanced honesty and humility,
And encouragement every day--
That is what I want to give
In everything I say.

I may be weak and sinful--
Oh, I know it's true, indeed!--
But the Lord is strong to save,
And give victory the lead.

So don't be downcast, O my soul,
Hope in God, your only hope!
His glory is the object,
His strength your saving rope.

Faith, as from the Canaanite Woman in Matthew 15

2011-03-29T21:03:00.000-07:00

'This woman is next of all an example to those who think they have been repulsed in their endeavours after salvation. Have you been praying, and have you not succeeded? Have you sought the Lord, and do you seem to be more unhappy than ever? Have you made attempts at reformation and amendment, and believed that you made them in the divine strength, and have they failed? Yet trust in Him whose blood has not lost its efficacy, whose promise has not lost its truth, and whose arm has not lost its power to save. Cling to the cross, sinner. If the earth sink beneath thee, cling on; if storms should rage, and all the floods be out, and even God Himself seem to be against thee, cling to the cross. There is thy hope. Thou canst not perish there.'
-Humility and How to Get It by Charles Spurgeon

New (Not-So-Classic) Poems

2011-03-28T11:58:00.000-07:00

Here are a few poems I wrote recently, which are simple, but I hope they bless you. I am so thankful for God's mercy to me, a sinner, and refreshment that yesterday and today brought. May our week be full of His promises, joyfully walking in Him.

1-4-11
Sweet promise divine,
Great comfort of mine,
That Jesus' blood saves us
And His strong arm holds us!
No matter how frail,
E'en when doubts assail,
Still Jesus is pleading,
His blood interceding!

3-7-11
Slave yet free,
Sweet mystery!
His yoke is easy,
His burden is light,
Yet our cross we must carry
And the battle we must fight.
God is our shield,
To Him let us yield.

3-20-11
Tender Father, loving Lord,
Beautiful and true is all Your Word.
Your Son, the Mediator,
Is the powerful Creator!

If so powerful and loving,
You know Your children's every longing,
And You wisely give us each thing
Light or hard each day may bring.

3-27-11
My life is full of "should have"s
Dark wishes and regrets.
The Lord pardons not by halves,
But all my guilt forgets!

He blots out like a thick cloud,
Yea, on His Son has laid,
Each and ev'ry sin so proud--
The debt has all been paid!

Old (Classic) Poems

2011-03-28T11:45:00.000-07:00

In this poem, found in The Treasury of David, v's are written as u's and e's were extremely popular, which makes for an interesting read. :) But it is a great poem, based partially on psalm 36.

Thy mercie Lord doth to the HEAUENS extend,
Thy faithfullnes doth to the CLOUDES assend;
Thy justice stedfast as a MOUNTAINE is,
Thy JUDGMENTS deepe as is the great Abisse;
Thy noble mercies saue all liueinge thinges,
The sonnes of men creepe underneath thy winges:
With thy great plenty they are fedd at will,
And of thy pleasure's streame they drinke their fill;
For euen the well of life remaines with thee,
And in thy glorious light wee light shall see.

-Sir John Davies.

And I love this one, written by Jeroninus Segerson, while he was in prison at Antwerp (he was a Baptist martyr). He wrote it to his wife, Lysken, who also was a prisoner there, 1551. (From The Treasury of David.)

In lonesome cell, guarded and strong I lie,
Bound by Christ's love, his truth to testify,
Though walls be thick, the door no hand unclose,
God is my strength, my solace, and repose.

Photo Set #2

2011-03-23T20:56:00.000-07:00

Keys to Delightful Springtime Memories by hismercysurrounding

(This is for a contest.)

Sweet Sojourn - Photo Set

2011-03-23T20:47:00.000-07:00

Sweet Sojourn by hismercysurrounding

(This was fun, and was made as a possibly contest entry. Polyvore is not without its pitfalls, though, so I'm not sure I'd recommend it.)

Another Post on Reading

2011-03-19T14:25:00.000-07:00

If you haven't read this post by Chantel yet, please do! Especially if you are an avid reader.

The Reading Balance

Verses and Message

2011-03-17T14:09:00.000-07:00

But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control. Against such there is no law. And those who are Christ’s have crucified the flesh with its passions and desires. - Galatians 5:22-24

But also for this very reason, giving all diligence, add to your faith virtue, to virtue knowledge, to knowledge self-control, to self-control perseverance, to perseverance godliness, to godliness brotherly kindness, and to brotherly kindness love. - 1 Peter 1:5-7

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My brother, Joel, gives a message here that I needed to hear. We can be too accepting or too condemning, and I have fallen on both sides at times, but probably more often the latter (in my heart if not outwardly). Here's his message:

Teaching and Correcting in Love and Humility

Are You a Good Person Poll Results & New Poll

2011-03-16T15:07:00.000-07:00

4 people answered "Yes"
4 people answered "In general"
3 people answered "No"
3 people answered "Not very"
No one answered "Other"

Well, if you think you are a good person on your own merit, you are sadly mistaken, as the Bible clearly states there are none good but God, and no one is righteous, not even one. However, this could be a bit of a trick question, as we are considered righteous in Christ by His merit alone.

A new poll is up about sleep habits.

What's a Girl to Read?

2011-03-15T13:58:00.000-07:00

This article by Elisabeth Allen is very good...something I wish I could have read when I was younger.

What's a Girl to Read?

Video About Idolitry

2011-03-12T09:43:00.000-08:00

This is thought-provoking (though I don't like the picture supposedly portraying Jesus). I have been struggling with these things off and on, and not just TV/movies, but computer and other things, too. There is a way in which we can use these things--the heart is what is important--but sometimes we may have to "turn it off." Or, as Matthew and Mark warn, pluck it out.

'And if your eye causes you to sin, pluck it out. It is better for you to enter the kingdom of God with one eye, rather than having two eyes, to be cast into *** fire—where
‘ Their worm does not die
And the fire is not quenched.’
-Mark 19:47

Don't Expect Instant Maturity

2011-03-12T09:31:00.000-08:00

This blessed me. Please take a listen!

Pilgrim Way Poem

2011-03-11T16:20:00.001-08:00

Pilgrim Way
by Melissa M.
3-11-11

Trav'ling down a narrow road,
The way is sometimes cold.
Fraught with dangers, rough and wild,
Oft-times I feel a child.

Be shadows lurking, dark and grave?
My soul cries out, "Lord, save!"
Be near me in this hour of fear,
And to my thoughts appear.

If I go off as a straying sheep,
Lord, give me eyes to weep!
If I forget Your way is sweet,
To me the fact repeat!

I am Your child, dear Lord, I know,
Yet cause me now to grow
That I may shed Your light and strength
To others on the Way.

Favorite Books

2011-03-10T14:12:00.000-08:00

For ylcf.org's March of Books, here are some more of my favorite tomes. I especially love vintage books and illustrations, and these first two red books are also very special to me because they are from my late father's library (as are many of the theological books in my library--he was a pastor). I have not read these two, yet, but I look forward to doing so (carefully)!

A lovely old book from my dad's library, along with some family lace cuffs and a doily.

A charming illustration (there are nearly a dozen inside).

And the second book is one that has a few familiar hymns (without the music written out) as well as many unfamiliar. We have some old hymnals with music that I think are from my mom or dad's library, which are a lot of fun to play through. Perhaps I'll take photos of those later.

A shelf full to the brim of treasured books--mostly from my father in the front row

This next book actually has my brother, John's, name in the front, but I'm not sure he wants it anymore (I will ask). It is a sweet old book that I read once upon a time and would like to read again.

My First Bible

2011-03-07T11:47:00.000-08:00

For the 2011 March of Books we were asked to take photos and tell about our favorite copy of a favorite book.

My favorite and most special book is my Bible, and this one means much, a Precious Moments version...the pages long since coming out. It was the first Bible of my very own, given me by a family friend when I was six years old, shortly before moving from NY to FL. My sister, Grace, made this cover for it, and I loved to trace the pattern of the flowers with my fingers. Inside, I highlighted and underlined verses that I liked or had memorized. I remember often reading over the little story lessons that went with certain gray-shaded verses.

These truly were precious moments, though at the time I was not yet born again and to me it was basically just a pretty and poetic book to look at, despite being taught its eternal worth. I am thankful for the seeds planted there, the passages read and memorized with my family.

Hammock Days

2011-03-07T11:18:00.000-08:00

There's nothing else like the sensation of resting off the ground, rocking gently, and looking up at a crisp cerulean sky, web of branches, and sunlight sparkling on leaves. I love to watch the birds--even vultures--circling and flapping, and hear the myriad of voices lifted in song. The warmth hits with intensity, but feels good for the moment.

Cool breezes shiver the limbs above, and occasionally a butterfly will ride hopscotch in the air. These are moments that make a smile stretch my face, and praises to God come more readily. Sickness is fading, and I know there has been a reason for it. Maybe to look at God's creation and truly enjoy health when it comes.

Praises be to God for all His gifts! Sight, sound, feeling, smelling, friendship, memory...and most of all...the gift of His eternal love through Christ Jesus. What mercy to us stingy, selfish beings!

Book Review

2011-03-07T08:01:00.000-08:00

The Bible And The Closet Or How We May Read The Scriptures With The Most Spiritual Profit: And Secret Prayer Successfully Managed (1842) by Thomas Watson

This early work is inspiring and informative. The language is beautiful, with many Biblical examples set forth for our edification. This is a book I may want to read several times in years to come. It's available for free online on google books, so I'd recommend checking it out! He addresses questions on prayer near the end, and thoughts on ejaculatory prayer.

I give it four of five stars.

Interview with Chantel

2011-02-17T11:44:00.000-08:00

The first interview on my blog is here now, by my online friend, Chantel Brankshire! Her blog, Life, Laughter, and the Little Things is that and more. I especially love her cheerful, thankful outlook and encouraging words. She also writes book reviews, which I enjoy.

So, without further ado, here is my interview with her.

Could you tell me something about your family?
My family is a growing, wonderful group of people who I am so honored and privileged to be a part of. I am the middle child of three, (making me the sandwich filling, so to speak!) and have 9 siblings-in-law total, and two sets of parents, and two nephews and a niece. I also have the joy of having two childhood friends as sister-in-laws. I love each one of my family members, and love being an auntie!

Some of Chantel's family at Thanksgiving time

Could you tell me something about your courtship and/or wedding?
Scott and I lived over 1000 miles apart, and it wasn't always easy to have so much distance between us, yet all the times apart make all the times together so much more beautiful, and while romance is a part of every relationship, we were able to become best friends and then lovers, and that is one of my favorite things- being married to my best friend. We got married in Washington state on March 15, 2009 in a little white church not far from the river. Our wedding was small and simple, but we were so blessed to be surrounded by our families, and even though I was so sick, it is a special day that I will always cherish.

Is there a word of encouragement or advice you could give to single (and/or married) young ladies?
God's way and His time are always perfect. It is hard to wait, and hard to not know, but don't let the waiting and the not knowing- whether you are single, newly wed, or an old married lady- keep you from really living, from finding the gold in every day moments, and from the sweet contentment of knowing that He is good, and that He does all things well. All things.

What are some of your favorite hobbies?
I've always had a really hard time picking out a favorite hobby, but I love writing, and letters, and books, and gardens and barefoot days and sunshine and raindrops. I like to sew and crochet and cook almost all our meals "from scratch". And every day is busy, but when every day things are hobbies, it makes every day very satisfying.

A moose in her AK garden!

Home canning

What is your favorite Bible verse, or book of the Bible, and why?
For some years, I have treasured a good portion of the 18th Psalm. Often, it feels as if it was written just for me, as I am reminded that "as for God, His way is perfect." and that He can make even my stumbling, halting feet like the feet of a deer, jumping on the mountains. It gives me courage, and hope that no matter what today looks like, He sees what I cannot see. He will make everything perfect in His time.

What are some of your favorite books? (Hard question to limit, I'm sure.)
I grew up listening to and reading Pilgrim's Progress. It is a book I turn back to often in my daily life, and feels like an old and trusted friend and counselor. I also find so much of myself in Much Afraid of Hind's Feet on High Places, and enjoy reading about the March Sisters in Little Women. I love books about Christ's life, and love to read my Bible through slowly and savor it.

What are your guidelines for what you read?
When I was a child, I made the words of Philippians 4:8 my standard by which to measure the books I read. A number of years ago, I also read this quote by Susanna Wesley that I try to also make my motto in living.

“Take this rule: whatever weakens your reason, impairs the tenderness of your conscience, obscures your sense of God, or takes off your relish of spiritual things; in short, whatever increases the strength and authority of your body over your mind, that thing is sin to you, however innocent it may be in itself.” –Susanna Wesley (Letter, June 8, 1725)

What are some of your long-term and everyday goals?
I guess I don't feel like I have a lot of important goals right now. My husband and I would love to one day own a small farm or ranch, but while it is a cherished dream, I couldn't exactly call it a goal, for we are learning to hold onto things with an open hand for God to give and take as He sees best.

I suppose my one big goal would be to be more like Jesus, and to not fight against the things that He brings into my life to change me, even if they are often hard and painful. Every day, I am striving for greater perfection in organization and time management and in keeping the most important things, like my spiritual health, marriage, family and the people God puts into my life, first and not be so easily caught up in other peoples' goals for my life.

Chantel and her husband starting their first garden

Who are the people who most inspire you?
People like Noah and Abraham inspire me with the amazing depth and intensity of their faith in following God no matter if it makes sense or not. Early missionaries like Hudson Taylor and Adoniram Judson, and David Livingstone, and Amy Carmichael inspire me by the way they gave so much to serve Him. Corrie Ten Boom, and others inspire me by their faithfulness and forgiveness. But often, it is the simple, trusting sweetness of people who I meet that inspires my heart every day in so many ways.

If you could travel through time, which three people would you most like to meet?
I think this might be the hardest question to answer. Not including Jesus, who I long to meet more than anyone else, I would love to meet Noah and Paul and Elizabeth from the Bible, and Patrick Henry, Galileo and Abraham Lincoln otherwise.

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Thank you, Chantel, for taking the time to write these excellent answers!

I'm planning to interview several people whose blogs I admire, so stay tuned for more in the coming months, if God wills!

Indoctrination Trailer

2011-02-15T16:13:00.000-08:00

“They are stealing our children, but because they are leaving the body of the child with us, we don’t even know it is happening.”

- Erwin Lutzer, IndoctriNation

Colin Gunn and his family travel in a big yellow school bus across America shooting a new documentary film that explores the origins of the American education system, the effects of public schools on the Christian family, and the turning of the hearts of parents to their children through home education. http://indoctrinationmovie.com/

“It isn’t indoctrination. It’s insanity.” - R.C. Sproul, Jr.

Poll Results

2011-02-15T16:09:00.000-08:00

How many times have you moved in your life?

Poll results:
Too many to count! :) - 5 votes (41%)
3 - 3 votes (25%)
4 - 2 votes (16%)
1 and 5 - 1 vote each (8%)

A lot of big movers, I see!
A new poll is up. If you have any questions you'd like to see asked, let me know.

Thought-Provoking Quote

2011-02-09T10:01:00.000-08:00

"If your heart takes more pleasure in reading novels, or watching TV, or going to the movies, or talking to friends, rather than just sitting alone with God and embracing Him, sharing His cares and His burdens, weeping and rejoicing with Him, then how are you going to handle forever and ever in His presence? You’d be bored to tears in heaven, if you’re not ecstatic about God now!" — Keith Green

I saw that on another blog, and I have to stop and think about that one. Is my heart more joyful in the Lord, or in things like movies and blogging and reading novels? That is a tough one to answer...though I think there is a deeper joy for me when I truly meditate on the Lord and His goodness. But I so often seek after what is not bread, thinking it will fill me. Perhaps it fills me, but with the kind of food that gives a pleasant sensation, but a stomach ache or emptiness in the end. Perhaps I need a break from the internet, and a retreat into the beauties of the Lord!

"The Betrayal" Review

2011-02-08T13:26:00.000-08:00

I just finished The Betrayal, which I quoted from in my last post. Here is my review.

Maybe it wasn't quite as riveting as I was expected, but it certainly had its riveting moments, and it was all-around fascinating, since I had not known much at all about Calvin's life, just his doctrine (which, granted, is a big part of who he was and a big part of his life). The story is written from the view-point of Calvin's enemy, who plans to take his revenge. I'm not sure if he was a real character, but the situation seems quite plausible. I learned quite a bit about Calvin's life and work, and the ending was touching. Would that my faith were as strong and loving as these martyrs of old, but I am thankful for God's grace and even a small measure of faith! I am glad for such a solid, well-researched work and hope to read more like it in the future!

Music to the Glory of God

2011-02-07T17:51:00.000-08:00

"Augustine approved of music but added strong caution. 'When it happens that I am more moved by the song than the thing which is sung, I confess that I sin in a manner deserving punishment.' We must beware of these dangers, dear brothers, in our use of music in worship." (The Betrayal: A Novel on John Calvin by Douglas Bond)

This made me say "Wow." I, who like music very much, am sometimes more aware of or moved by the melody and harmony than the words. The two should both be excellent, but the words in worship should be our focus. An elder at church has mentioned that before, but this quote brought it to me in more force.

Quotes

2011-02-03T21:48:00.000-08:00

From The Treasury of David:

'God deserves blessing with the heart, and extolling with the mouth--good thoughts in the closet, and good words in the world.'

And to go along with it I recently read these verses in the Psalms:

'I will bless the LORD at all times;
His praise shall continually be in my mouth.'
(Psalm 34:1)

'I will give You thanks in the great assembly;
I will praise You among many people.'
(Psalm 35:18)

'And my tongue shall speak of Your righteousness
And of Your praise all the day long.'
(Psalm 35:28)

Painting is from poster.com (Promenade by Monet)

Soap Giveaway

2011-02-01T13:37:00.000-08:00

Natural handmade soap--lovely! There's a giveaway going on right now for three bars of handmade soap from Apple Valley. Click here to see.

Review of "Unplanned"

2011-01-15T14:14:00.000-08:00

Unplanned

This book tells the fascinating, sobering true story of the journey of Abby Johnson. She worked for Planned Parenthood, believing she was helping women and decreasing the amount of abortions. She was a professed Christian. All the while she worked there, her parents, her husband, and even the workers on the opposing side, the Coalition for Life, were praying for her and loving her. She became friends with some of those peaceful pro-life members, and God used them to help change her mind. Can someone be so deceived as to think they are doing God's will in a pro-choice clinic? Can prayers, love, and outreach toward your neighbor--even one you radically disagree with--make a difference? This book, without arguing, testifies to a resounding "Yes." We are all weak and sinful beings, and even as Christians we can be deceived by semantics, by wanting to make a difference, and by not doing the proper research. This book makes me want to be a more loving and wise Christian, one who truly cares about others and doesn't make snap judgments. The women who undergo abortions--they are wrong, but they are desperate. They are hurting, needy souls. The issue is not just a fight for the lives of the unborn--which is crucial--but also for the lives of the parents and of those participating in the abortions. God can save anyone and use anyone. In fact, each of us is capable of extreme evil, for each is born a sinner. Possibly contrary to what Mrs. Johnson thinks, based on the Bible, I do believe in church discipline and that we are to be careful about the company we keep; however, even in that we are to be loving and seek the other person's good.

I am thankful for this book and the thoughts and questions it stirs up. God's hand was shown gloriously through the story of Abby Johnson.

In exchange for my honest review, Tyndale House Publishers has provided me with a complimentary copy of this book.

This Year

2011-01-04T14:10:00.000-08:00

I am thankful to God for a wonderful year in 2010! May this year be one of higher growth and deeper love for God. Here are some of the highlights of the year (I'm sorry for the lack of pictures).

January:

Went ice skating
Got together with friends from church

February:

Had a needed root canal performed
Began to teach watercolor classes!
Listened to Evenings with Victoria Botkin

March:

Godly advice from family & friends
Made wheat noodles with friends

April:

Camped in Big Bend National Park

May:

Bought a big batch of tomatoes and made ketchup, etc.

June:

Joel, Charity, Harmony, and Autumn visited
My first time to play the piano at church in TX

July:

The Baby Conference with Vision Forum - great speeches and visiting with friends
A family came over for lunch and hymn singing after church
We went to watch a movie (Hymns and History) that friends made. They were gracious enough to use my painting of Martin Luther in it.

August:

Mr. and Mrs. Castillo visited!
We went to the Animal Safari with them
Had another Hispanic family over with Castillos and singing fun praise songs
Went to a wedding shower for someone from church
Went to the wedding of our friend, Cindy

September:

Saw Joel, Charity, Charity's sister, and Charity's father at church
Went to a lovely concert and auctioned a painting for Voice of the Martyrs fundraiser

October:

Get together at the Phillips' house
Hymn singing at our house after church with friends
Writing classes with Mrs. Morecraft (begun in Sep., I believe)
Writing poetry
Painting and helping at the Manteufel's house

November:

Went to The San Antonio Independent Christian Film Festival - very enjoyable!
Joel & Charity visited us for a pre-Thanksgiving get-together at Michael & Grace's house, etc.
Exchanged gifts with Joel & Charity and part of our family
Annie and I traveled by car to Fort Worth with Joel and Charity
We tented at a Chick-Fil-A grand opening in the cold!
Talked quite a bit with Harmony, Charity's sister
Went to another pre-Thanksgiving get-together with our cousins and uncle and aunt.
Went to a 5-course demonstration dinner
Annie and I rode back on the train--our first ride on one!

December

Packed up to leave to a new part of the state!
Watched & listened to episodes of Navigating History

What were your blessings of 2010?

Book Ideas for 2011

2011-01-03T20:00:00.000-08:00

Here's my list of books that I may read this year.

Ones I have started last year (or earlier):
Humility and How to Get It by Charles Spurgeon

The Treasury of David: Volume 1 - Psalms 1-57 (I may not finish it this year, but that would be nice. I'm over half of the way through, but it's a long book.)

The Portable Patriot: Documents, Speeches, and Sermons That Compose the American Soul

Chronicles of Avonlea by L.M. Montgomery

The Poetical Works of Oliver Wendell Holmes Volume 02: Additional Poems (1837-1848)

Afterwhiles by James Whitcomb Riley

American Poetry, 1922 A Miscellany

The Bible And The Closet Or How We May Read The Scriptures With The Most Spiritual Profit: And Secret Prayer Successfully Managed (1842)

Ten P's in a Pod : A Million-Mile Journal of the Arnold Pent Family

A Woman's High Calling: 10 Essentials for Godly Living by Elizabeth George

The Pre-Tribulation Rapture by Alan Beechick

The Adventures of Sherlock Holmes by Arthur Conan Doyle

A Study in Scarlet / The Hound of the Baskervilles by Arthur Conan Doyle

An Autobiography of Buffalo Bill (Colonel W. F. Cody)

The Girl's Own Book by Lydia Maria Child (POSSIBLY this year--it's more of a reference book than a read-through)

Winslow Homer Watercolors by Helen A. Cooper (POSSIBLY this year--it's more of a reference book than a read-through)

Ones I started this year:
The Holiness of God by R.C. Sproul
Lost City of the Incas by Hiram Bingham

Others to Read This Year, Possibly
The Betrayal: A Novel on John Calvin by Douglas Bond
Alone Yet Not Alone by Tracy Leininger Craven
Don't Waste Your Life by John Piper
In the Presence of My Enemies by Gracia Burnham
Passionate Housewives Desperate for God by Jennie Chancey and Stacy McDonald
The Long Walk: The True Story of a Trek to Freedom by Slavomir Rawicz
Verses of Virtue compiled by Elizabeth Beall Phillips

Classics:
Mansfield Park or Persuasion by Jane Austen
The Woman in White by Wilkie Collins
One of Dickens, perhaps
The Count of Monte Cristo by Alexandre Dumas

The Two Margarets

2011-01-02T19:35:00.000-08:00

The Two Margarets
by Melissa Merritt
October, 2010

Eighteen summers had Margaret Wilson passed,
Now trusting firmly in Jehovah.
Neither parent believing, alas--
They saw her faith as an enigma.

When the king's men spread throughout the land
Arresting opposers of prelacy.
The Wilson siblings had joined such a band,
Retreating from cave to marsh, the back-country.

It seemed the danger had abated,
So the sisters dined with a friend in town.
This widow's other guests were elated
While they brought the girls--their enemies--down.

As the girls were dragged to prison,
Their hearts drummed fast and loud;
Yet even in the roofless dungeon,
They remembered God rebukes the proud.

The stone door clanked open wide,
But only for a moment, in the gloom.
The girls were pushed and squeezed inside,
'Mid the bodies in that crowded tomb.

One day a lined face appeared before them,
Widow Margaret MacLauchlan, their own.
They gasped and reached each other, then.
"Oh, my friend!" they each did bemoan.

"We must not waver; we must be strong!
The LORD will be our help, I ken."
Thus they waited, bursting out in song,
Fin'lly huddling to sleep after the last amen.

They were brought before the court's bench,
Margaret Wilson and her sister.
"Does the king control the church?
Or does God?" the voices blistered.

"God," they cried in unison,
Young Agnes along with Margaret.
Their sad fate they could envision,
But they turned not to vile regret.

Their father fought to free them,
Paying ransom for the younger;
But Margaret still they would condemn,
Though Mr. Wilson contended longer.

Morning eclipsed morning, nothing changed;
Bread and water were all their meat.
Some pris'ners fell, some grew deranged.
Some shared a cloak for added heat.

'Twas dark each night, no sign of a lantern,
And oft the rain pummeled their heads;
But the true and righteous could not turn,
Not bend, though they ached for soft beds.

They were prepared, these Margarets twain,
Reciting many a verse of God's Holy Writ.
They fainted not in adversity nor died in vain,
No drowning could put out their glow, once lit.

So when the guards came, mocking,
On that pale gray Wigtown dawn,
The torch-lights of the prison wing
Were steadily burning on.

'Twas May of sixteen hundred eighty five
When they were hauled into the tide,
The younger watched the older strive,
And called it the wrestling of Christ inside.

Margaret sang and prayed, unafraid.
They dragged her out, panting, for one more proffer,
But her resolve was not allayed;
Eternity with Christ had more to offer.

Poetry

2011-01-02T19:21:00.000-08:00

Waxing and Waning
by Melissa Merritt
10-7-10

The sea is glib tonight,
Cresting rocks with fine finesse,
Lacy-white breath dissolving fast
Around sandpipers' fleet dance.
The mellow moon rises
Soft and slow,
Dipping white fingers into
The surf below.
Questions tingle in my mind
Like the twinkling of the stars,
Myriad and mysterious
And unending.
Where am I meant to be
On the billet of this life?
Is there a niche just waiting
For me to fill it?
Will tomorrow bring the answers,
Or will sorrow's pain
Stop me short of
Godly gain?
As a refreshing wave
Bathes my feet,
A refreshing Spirit
Bathes my soul.
There are some things
We can know,
And some are left
For our tomorrow.
Today's duties,
Like the tide,
Repeat 'til God
Sweeps them aside.
And like each moon
Each task is special,
Waxing, waning,
Large and small,
God requires us to
Give our all.

Reading Challenge, 2011

2011-01-02T17:27:00.000-08:00

Reading Chantel's worthy goals at the above link have convicted me. Was I really reading everything that met up with Philippians 4:8? My problem is if I own a book, I it's almost like I have to read it before getting rid of it, even if I'm not sure it will be that good, and once I start reading a book, I like to finish it. I try to read things that aren't defiling, but perhaps it's time to reexamine even the "harmless" fluffy books, ones Christian in name, but hardly in spirit. Maybe I can skim them over to decide if they are worth reading before I read them, as I did with a few that I decided to give away or trade on paperbackswap. Our move to a new house prompted that in part. But I do want to be pleasing to God, to think on the pure and lovely things. I know I'm weak and give in often, but the Lord is strong, and I'm praying He will help me to do far better this year. Hoping that you will join me in the adventure, and read the books that really do get through to you...in a good way.

~~~~~

My goals, then, are to read books that are more spiritually or practically helpful. Fewer fiction books. I'm going to set the goal of at least 10 nonfiction Christian books. No more than 10 fiction books. And probably a few classics or other nonfiction books.

Last year I read 8 nonfiction Christian books, plus the Bible. 3 classics. 6 secular nonfiction books. And a whopping 25 random fiction books. A little off-balanced, wouldn't you say? Hoping I can do things a little differently this year! If I do read more than 10 fiction books, I want to make sure they are good ones, and I'm especially trying to stay away from romance in the modern sense.

I didn't start off too well, perhaps, but it could have been worse. Yesterday I started and today I finished Love Finds You in Liberty, Indiana by Melanie Dobson, which was not as much a romance as it sounds by the title. More of a historical novel, with some romance at the end.

Now I am starting to read the classic theology book called The Holiness of God by R.C. Sproul, which I received free--thank you, Ligonier Ministries! It is already a very thought-provoking book and one I think I can really recommend.

I also want to finish at least most of the 15 other books I started last year or before!

Various

2010-12-21T07:23:00.000-08:00

We have been packing up boxes in preparation to move to our new place. We have had volunteers of help from church--so gracious--and last week they helped move a bunch of furniture over. The new place has a large fenced-in garden that will be my mom's delight, but also a place for my sister and me to invest in and learn from...and perhaps I'll get to grow some butternut squash or something equally delightful. I have never done much gardening at all, but I think I will enjoy it once I get into the swing of things.

We know some people who are putting together a movie about Christian manhood, vengeance, and other themes. They hope to raise enough money to help with all the technical details before January 1. What is this movie? Jimmy Valiant: Scions of Danger. If you can spare even a dollar to give them, I'm sure they would appreciate it. Click here if you want to pledge your support.

Winter time is here, but in Texas there is hardly ever any snow. Soon "Christmas" will be here. Yet in our house there will be no gifts to wrap, no tree to decorate. Why? Well, for one, Jesus was not likely born in the winter. Then, the Bible says specifically to remember His death, though we are to remember His miraculous birth, as well. But most of all, I think my concern is the pagan origins of the holiday. Can something pagan be sanctified by Christians? Perhaps, but not if all the same elements are left in, such as Christmas trees and Santa Claus. The ties to the original meanings are too strong. Yet I struggle, because I like the look of twinkling lights and decorated trees, and in and of themselves I don't believe they are wrong. But on the same day as a pagan holiday first took place, and syncretized with Christian beliefs (first by Catholics, I think)....Can God be pleased with this? One may say the heart is the most important, and it is, but God always had His special ways of doing things, and was angry if it was not done in just the right way, and if holy was mixed with profane.

Anyway, for us, this holiday has always been off limits, and I think that is how it will stay for me. Let us rejoice daily that Jesus came, was born sinless, and died the spotless Lamb of God for sinful wretches!

In a similar vein, I have been thinking about books and movies such as The Chronicles of Narnia and Lord of the Rings. There are supposed to be Christian elements to them, and I can see them at least in TCON and have enjoyed the movies in part, but there are also pagan elements mixed in (such as fawns and other half-man half-animal beings). Is God pleased with this, even if I seem to get something good out of it? I have justified it, but seeing the correlation to Christmas has jarred my thoughts here....Does that mean I'll never, ever watch the movies? Not necessarily. I'm still mulling that one over.

Polls

2010-12-14T14:18:00.000-08:00

Again, I'm late with updating the poll. We are busy this month with packing and moving (thus the theme of my next poll).

Here are the top answers for the last two polls....

How many books do you typically read in a year (take your best guess)?
10-20 came out first with 5 votes (23%)
30-50 and 50-70 came out second with 3 votes each (14%)
20-30, 70-100, 200-250, and 300-350 are all tied for third place! (9%)
One person each voted for 1-5 and 125-150.

The second poll (multiple answers for each person allowed) was:
Do you think having a television is a good idea?
Yes - 2 people (8%)
No - 4 " (17%)
I'm still thinking about it. - 3 " (13%)
Not for kids under the age of 5 - 1 (4%)
Only if it is carefully monitored and limited. - 19 (82%)

Thanks for participating in my polls!

Hymn

2010-12-10T20:25:00.001-08:00

This is a lovely hymn, as are many on this site:
http://songsandhymns.org/hymns/lyrics/ah-holy-jesus-how-hast-thou-offended

An Open Pipe

2010-12-10T08:09:00.000-08:00

I hope that title got your attention. ;) It has to do with the second quote I'm posting.

These are from the book Humility and How to Get It, by which I have been blessed. I've only just finished the first part (like a chapter, though there are only sections), and it was chock full of rich and encouraging thoughts!

Okay, on to the quotes:
'Let us contrast our love to God with His love to us. Dear brethren, we do love God, and we may well do so, since He is infinitely lovable. When the mind is once enlightened it sees everything that is lovable about God. He is so good, so gracious, so perfect that He commands our admiring affection. The spouse in the song, when she thought of her beloved, mentioned all manner of beauties, and then cried, "Yea, he is altogether lovely." It is natural, therefore, that one who sees God should love Him, But, now, think of God's love to us; is it not incomparably greater, since there was nothing lovely in us whatever, and yet He loved us? In us there is by nature nothing to attract the affection of a holy God, but quite the reverse; and yet He loved us. Herein, indeed, is love!' [p. 10]

'If you had to manage waterworks for the distribution of water all over this city, and there was a certain pipe into which you poured water, and none ever came out at the other end, do you know what you would do? You would take it out and say, "This does not suit my purpose: I want a pipe that will give out as well as receive." That is exactly what the Lord desires of us. Do not selfishly say, "I want to sit down and enjoy the love of God. I shall never say a word to anybody about Christ. I will never give a poor creature so much as a brass farthing; but I want to sit down and be solaced with the love of God." If you think thus, you are a pipe plugged up; you are of no use; you will have to be taken out of the system of the Church; for the system of love-supply for the world requires open pipes, through which love divine may freely flow. May the Lord clear you, and fill you, so that out of you there may continually flow rivers of living water. Amen.' [p. 15]

The San Antonio Independent Christian Film Festival, Part 2

2010-11-23T14:51:00.000-08:00

~Saturday~
We went to the last day of the film festival a bit later than the other days, missing the first hour and a half. We watched Live to Forgive in the large auditorium in the Municipal building. This was an amazing true story of a man who forgives and meets with his step-dad after he murdered his mom. We didn't agree with all the theology, exactly, and I didn't like some of the loud, rocky music, but otherwise it was very interesting.

Next we went to the other building to see Dispatches from the Front: A Bold Advance, which tugged at my heart, as well. We missed the first few minutes of it. The writing and filming were beautiful...but even more so was the love shown to others in countries where the gospel had not yet been given. The Christian converts in these countries shone with their love and words about Christ. We should be praying for them...and learning from their examples.

We broke for lunch after that; all three of us went to the food court in the mall.

Then we went to R.C. Sproul, Jr.'s lecture, where Mrs. Morecraft and her daughter, Mercy, were to announce the winners of her writing contest. I saw the Verrets and Lauren Bleser there, and sat next to them. Lauren said she'd cheer really loud for me and embarrass me if I won. :) I said I'd be embarrassed if I had to go up and say anything. Mercy did some funny country acting (pretending to be "Cousin Bertha Jean"). Then all the names of the winners were called, starting from the youngest category. As the list grew, including some ties, I grew more hopeful that my name might be among them. But no. Three of our friends/church members had won something, but not me. I was disappointed. It is in God's providence, though, and I'm sure it will help to keep my easily puffed-up ego deflated. I'm still writing poetry, though. It will always be something I enjoy, whether anyone else thinks it's good or not.

Annie and I had been thinking of leaving after the announcement to go see something else, but we decided to stay, as it was already pretty far into the hour and we thought it might be an interesting lecture. It was called "Where is God in Your Movie?" We are not really interested in becoming film-makers, but it was a good lecture in many ways. I could apply it to my writing, and life in general. I wasn't sure if I agreed 100% with everything he said, but the gist of it was good.

After that, we stayed to hear Kevin Swanson lecture on "Humor in the Family." It was good--not so humorous as it was thought-provoking. Our humor needs to be "attacking" what is bad, and endearing us to what is good, not the other way around, as some humor is.

In the break from 5:30 (? - our lectures went late, but I'm not sure how late) to 7:30, we went with Lauren to the mall's food court again. Lauren's new friend, Cindy, was there alone, so she joined us, though she had already eaten. Annie and Andy didn't join us at the round table, so I sat with just Lauren and Cindy. (My siblings didn't mean to be rude.) We talked as we ate, and I listened much of the time. Lauren and Cindy were talking about their pasts and conversions. I chimed in after Cindy's testimony, "That's how I was." And I told a little more about it.

Then they launched into a discussion on daughters staying home, as in the book So Much More.

After that, Andrew and Annie came over. We still had some time left before the Closing Ceremonies, so we headed to the Starbucks in the mall we were in and all (I think) ordered Pumpkin Spice Lattes (Annie and I shared one.) As I was waiting in line, I told Cindy a little more of my background and my dad, how he had died of cancer yet stayed strong in the Lord to the end, and how this had been in some ways helpful to me.

We talked some more as we gave them a ride in our van over to the other building. We were now talking about the churches we attended.

We separated. We met Mr. and Mrs. Marcic there and sat with them, though Annie didn't come until later because she was an usher. The closing ceremonies started with some ads for sponsors, I believe, or prayer, and singing. Mrs. Morecraft had sung in the opening ceremonies, and now the Salters/Amy Salter Rutherford played and sang. George Sarris also did his second Biblical dramatization--Jonah was the first one the night before (?) and this time it was Naaman the leper. I really enjoy those, the enthusiasm and character he puts into it.

Finally, the finalists and winners were announced! Not surprisingly, The Runner from Ravenshead won the Audience Choice award. The grand prize winner was Agenda: Grinding America Down. I was happy for them, and touched by their God-honoring story of praying and fasting and by the man's humility.

After the ceremonies, I got to have my photo taken with the little girl who played The Runner from Ravenshead. She seems as sweet as she looks. :) I also got my picture taken with Cindy B., the one I talked with earlier. I am glad to have met her. She is really sweet.

The next day, we went to the convention center for church services. Saw the Verrets again. We sat with the Marcics during the service. The preacher was Mr. Scott Brown, and he did an excellent job, on blessings and curses from Deuteronomy.

After the service and saying some goodbyes to our dear friends the Verrets and the Marcics, we headed home. Shortly thereafter, we left for the Sarratts' house, where we had a scrumptious meal. There were many other families with us. Annie and I sat and talked much of the time with Shanna Strackbein, who is easy to talk with and very sweet. She asked me about my writing, and we talked about Dickens and other books and movies. The Strackbein sisters and Shorts were talking about driving, and their trust in God even after being in some wrecks and close calls was encouraging.

On Tuesday, we had the Deamers over, along with a friend of theirs from Pennsylvania, who is a piano tuner, and his niece, Courtney. Annie and I got along well with Courtney, who is a soft-spoken but personable young lady. We had a supper of pot roast, potatoes, carrots, and a tossed salad, with chocolate cake for dessert. I was doing my share of talking during the meal, since Mr. Deamer was asking me some questions. Not that I took up all the conversation, or anything, but I was talking more than I usually do, at least during meals.

After supper (and a bit before supper, too), their friend, Michael, worked on tuning our baby grand piano. He said it was long overdue for a tuning. (When he was finished, the piano sounded much better--it had been more out of tune than we had realized! He also fixed the squeak that the soft pedal would always make when you lift your foot off.)

Annie, Courtney, and I talked and drank peppermint/chamomile tea together. Again, Dickens was mentioned. Courtney has some things in common with me, like liking to write.

I'm so thankful to God for such godly and caring friends, more than I ever had before. And for the peace that passes all understanding. :) I've been reading over some of my old journals lately, and I can see how fearful, inward-focused, and aimless I was before. Praise God for His sanctifying work day by day!

The Old Living-room

2010-11-08T13:36:00.001-08:00

Painting by Hugo Engl

I wrote this using a word association exercise given in Mrs. Morecraft's online writing class. Based on my early days in NY.

The Old Living-room
by Melissa M.
9-30-10

Our living-room was large but old,
A hundred years or more, I'm told;
Across the carpet in the dark,
We'd rub fast to cause a spark.

On that same floor 'most every day
We'd kneel beside the couch to pray.
My father's deep, resounding words
Shed light the verses we'd heard.

Dad taught there on the first of each week
As we gathered to hear him speak.
His voice was warm, impassioned, strong,
And our voices blended, too, in song.

They would set up a table on heavy wheels
And there we ate many agape meals.
Grandma brought pie or salad without fail,
We laughed and shared, discussed each detail.

My mom taught me phonics, the basics to read--
I sounded them out and followed her lead--
Read of spotted dogs and puffy cats;
Of little red hens wearing floppy straw hats!

My brothers chased, my sisters played,
My dad and mom and everyone prayed.
This was how our family began to bloom,
And it all happened in the old living-room.

The San Antonio Independent Christian Film Festival, Part 1

2010-11-01T14:01:00.001-07:00

~Thursday~
We missed the first morning & afternoon of the film festival, since Andrew had to work and we had no way of getting there. But it was okay with us, since most of the films at that time we weren't too excited about, or could see them later when they repeated. Grace took us in for the opening ceremonies at 6:30.

We spotted the Marcic family there (friends of ours from FL), and we greeted them but sat in different places.

There were some trailers for the upcoming films, and then Mr. Botkin spoke on how to evaluate Hollywood films. It was really good. Much of it I'd known before, but some of it surprised me a little. They talked about the films Finding Nemo, One Night With the King, and Love's Unending Legacy, all of which I have seen and thought were fairly decent, though not perfect. My favorite of the three would probably be Finding Nemo for its animation quality and comedy--otherwise I know there are a few problems with the message or attitudes in it.

After that, the film Divided was shown. It was not part of the competition, but it was excellent. It showed the dangers of youth groups and how the idea is not found anywhere in Scripture. The film quality and style were great, keeping your interest all the way through.

After the film, the film-makers talked a bit about how and why they had made the film.

~Friday~

Dawned with cold air. We got to the Municipal Auditorium early, since Annie was to be working there as a volunteer. The doors were closed, so we waited around. Eventually, we left Annie there with the Manteufels and Andrew and I drove over to the convention center to see Sybil Ludington and Journey to Everest.

The first movie was the story of a 16-year-old girl who rode 40 miles on horseback to round up the troops against the British in the Revolutionary War. It was inspiring in some ways, and mostly kept my interest. However, I thought the pacing was a little slow at times, showing the same basic scene with repeating music (especially so at the dance). Also, the acting could use some work, and some of Sybil's attitudes at first were not so great. In general I kind of enjoyed it, though, and wondered if I could do anything so brave and exhausting.

Andrew gave his thoughts on the film to one of the new Vision Forum interns, including the kind of guns used. The intern said he was very detailed and that it sounded like Andy could be one of the judges. :)

The next film, Journey to Everest, was interesting--especially seeing the numerous awful gods and goddesses they worship in Nepal. Overall not my favorite film, though, because it didn't seem to explain much in the way of spiritual depth or purpose. There was some of that, but mostly just what I had seen in the trailer.

Andrew and I went to lunch by ourselves after that, getting some Asian food. We brought Annie an Italian wrap for her lunch, and I stayed with her a little while and talked with Mr. Manteufel as Andy went to park.

Then we saw Agenda: Grinding America Down. This...this was a powerful film, which we watched as we sat next to the Verret family. Andrew came in late, since he had had trouble with finding a place to park that would accept his money--I guess he didn't have enough change. During the film, next to me, Lacie was jotting down notes. After a while, I pulled my notebook out and joined her in so doing. I had just recently learned something about Communism and the KGB from some youtube videos Andy shared with us. They were actually very fascinating, though somewhat out of date. But the history was there, and I had basically known nothing about it before then. What I knew was vague and somewhat inaccurate--the exciting spy version. Communism seeks to deceive, and is hard on those that don't agree with the system. So, this film tied in with that, talking more about Karl Marx and his various ties to different American organizations. I believe this film is one of the most important and useful ones in the film festival. Not a fun film to watch, but one we need to watch and re-watch, as Lacie said. At the close of the film, I asked Laura and Lacie to sign my autograph book. They wrote a couple of sweet notes. They are two girls I love and look up to, though they are quite a bit younger than I am.

We went down to the vending tables, looking at books and DVDs. There were even a few books and things for free, which we picked up. While there, Lacie gave me an idea for an art project, which I am seriously considering following up on. Mom, Annie, and I discussed it and possible ideas for it this morning, too. Should I tell you all or keep it a secret? I guess I will keep it a secret for now; sorry! :)

We went back upstairs to see The Runner from Ravenshead, and we all enjoyed that very much. It is an allegory and comedy, using all little kids from one family for the cast! And they are great in their roles. The message is one that should touch you as well, even if the allegory wasn't perfect. The movie was definitely better than I thought it would be.

The cast from The Runner from Ravenshead giving a behind-the-scenes look at the making of their film.

The sweet Verret family

We met up with the Marcics after a while. We were thinking of watching some other films, but since we wanted to eat supper with the Marcics, they said we should get to doing that if we wanted to get back in time for Ace Wonder, which we did. So we started out for Casa Rio after a bit of deliberation. We had a nice supper--Annie and I got a sort of tropical salad, and the others got enchiladas and such. Only Mr. and Mrs. Marcic, Jonathan, Meghan, and baby Nathan ate with us. We talked about various things like our families, friends, and the films we'd watched. Mr. Marcic more than kindly paid for our meals.

That night, we watched the premier screening of a rough-cut Ace Wonder. Even in an unfinished stage, it was quite amazing. Very professional.

...To Be Continued

Back

2010-10-31T19:47:00.000-07:00

My "computer fast" was somewhat successful. I didn't completely stay off the computer, but it was better than normal, and I want to try to continue to be careful with how much time I spend on it....Because I did get more done (did clean out the nasty refrigerator with some help from my mom and sister), felt better, and had a bit more focus on the Lord. But it was easy to stay off the computer on the last two/three days of the week, since I was away at the film festival most of that time.

I had a wonderful time there, and I want to tell about it in more detail tomorrow or sometime this week! I also had a wonderful time today at our friends' house, fellow-shipping with lovely people.

More later.

Blessings to you all in Christ Jesus!

Computer Fast

2010-10-25T13:50:00.000-07:00

Something I would have a far, far harder time giving up than a television would be a computer. (The reason why I wrote a couple of poems about it in previous posts.)

So...I think I will have a "computer fast" this week, only getting on (after this) to check my e-mail once a day (if that), or do things that are necessary like checking for recipes. Maybe this will help me to get some important things done like cleaning the refrigerator, painting a picture for a friend, etc. Plus--most importantly--I hope I will be able to refocus on Christ and His Word.

Anyone is welcome to join me. :)
The only reason I am posting this is for accountability. If I don't tell others what I intend to do, then I would be more likely to welsh on my decision (sad but true).

Television - A Blessing or Curse or In Between?

2010-10-19T14:55:00.000-07:00

I will set nothing wicked before my eyes; I hate the work of those who fall away; It shall not cling to me. - Psalm 101:3

The subject of one of my new polls is television. I know several families who do not watch any television, and I admire them for their convictions.

In our family, we grew up with very limited television, and at one point my dad threw our set out.

But we have a television now, which don't spend a lot of time watching, and I think there is a way to guardedly watch television. I believe young children should not watch much if any television, as it may be a distraction and hindrance to work, growth, and intelligence. It may even be the same for adults if we are not careful. There are so many bad influences on TV, that it is necessary to keep a tight rein on it. Even the so-called decent, family movies and shows usually have their problems.

Is a television useless and bad, then? Some may say yes, but I say no, with caution. There are some good shows on helpful things such as cooking, gardening, and household projects. There are even some historical documentaries from which we can learn. But we have to keep our mind sharp, not taking everything we hear as fact, and helping our children to understand what is right or wrong. Then there are DVDs and movies, some of which are decent or even very helpful. You don't need a television for those, of course, as they can be played on a computer.

What of those awful ads? That is one of the wost problems, no doubt. But if you change the channel in between your show or watch only a couple of more conservative channels, it is possible to remain free of such influences.

There are bad influences all around us, from real life to online to on television. We should try our best to avoid the bad, and perhaps it is harder to do so with a television, but I am not convinced it is wrong to have one. I'm open to changing my mind on this, though.

Thoughts?

New Poll

2010-10-19T13:45:00.000-07:00

I'm finally getting around to posting results and new polls. The results of the last poll are:

How many siblings do you have?
0 - 4 people (5%)
1 - 15 people (21%)
2 - 16 people (22%)
3 - 13 people (18%)
4 - 6 people (8%)
5 - 3 people (4%)
6 - 2 people (2%)
7 - 3 people (4%)
8 - 4 people (5%)
9 - 0 people (0%)
10 - 1 people (1%)
11 - 1 people (1%)
12 - 0 people (0%)
13 - 0 people (0%)
14 - 0 people (0%)
15 or more - 2 people (2%)

I was pleasantly surprised to see 2 people had 15 or more siblings!

Time for two new polls, on books and television.

A Good Message

2010-09-19T11:22:00.000-07:00

Just listened to this. (We're home from church today as Mom wasn't feeling the best, and Annie had a not-so-good night.)

The Centrality of the Home in Evangelism and Discipleship of the Next Generation, by Voddie Baucham. It's very good and to the point. It isn't the most comprehensive of all the issues, but it touched me, and I hope it will do the same for you, as well. It's what I've basically heard and believed before, but he speaks with such passion that it made me feel ashamed of my own halfheartedness. I know some in the youth groups who are very well-intentioned, and I do want to be careful not to ungraciously bash people who disagree with me, but...listen for yourself and see what you think.

Diligence

2010-09-12T20:22:00.000-07:00

Some convicting/inspiring quotes in one of the areas in which I struggle...

He who tills his land will be satisfied with bread,
But he who follows frivolity is devoid of understanding.
- Proverbs 12:11

The hand of the diligent will rule,
But the lazy man will be put to forced labor.
-Proverbs 12:24

The lazy man does not roast what he took in hunting,
But diligence is man's precious possession.
- Proverbs 12:27

The soul of a lazy man desires, and has nothing;
But the soul of the diligent shall be made rich.
- Proverbs 13:4

The way of the lazy man is like a hedge of thorns,
But the way of the upright is a highway.
- Proverbs 15:19

But, beloved, we are confident of better things concerning you, yes, things that accompany salvation, though we speak in this manner. For God is not unjust to forget your work and labor of love which you have shown toward His name, in that you have ministered to the saints, and do minister. And we desire that each one of you show the same diligence to the full assurance of hope until the end, that you do not become sluggish, but imitate those who through faith and patience inherit the promises.
- Hebrews 6:9-12

Ninety-nine percent of the failures come from people who have the habit of making excuses.
- George Washington Carver

Poll

2010-08-19T16:17:00.001-07:00

If you haven't already, please vote in my poll on the sidebar, about how many siblings you have. :) Voting ends in 11 days.

Outside This Invention

2010-08-12T20:24:00.000-07:00

Why is it we so often think
There's fulfillment on this screen?
Friends, indeed, are fun to follow,
Blogs and photos to be seen.

But there's a world of difference
When we take a step back and forget
To remember checking facebook walls,
And simply stop and learn not to fret.

Useful tools can also be instruments of pain...
Though we think we know which is which,
We can blur the lines and think our loss is gain,
And sometimes our minds turn off the switch.

So much lies outside this invention...
Trees and birds and piano beaming,
Laughter, hugs, and intervention,
Passages sweet and full of meaning.

Even the mundane tasks once dreaded
Can become sweet and refreshing,
Bring us closer to where we're headed,
And to others be a blessing.

Let us not forget Who gives each hour,
Each hope and strength and love,
Each counter-top to scour--
Each gift is from above.

-Melissa M.
8-12-10

Jane Austen Tour Blog Contest

2010-08-02T21:36:00.000-07:00

Here is my entry for the contest. Just in time! I wasn't planning to enter at first, but I had fun painting this today with watercolors. It shows up a little grainier than in real life, as I had to take a photograph of it. Click for larger image.

And here's a shot of the painting as it was in progress, and the two pictures I based it on:

I Asked the Lord That I Might Grow

2010-07-20T13:57:00.000-07:00

I asked the Lord that I might grow
In faith, and love, and every grace;
Might more of His salvation know,
And seek, more earnestly, His face.

’Twas He who taught me thus to pray,
And He, I trust, has answered prayer!
But it has been in such a way,
As almost drove me to despair.

I hoped that in some favored hour,
At once He’d answer my request;
And by His love’s constraining pow’r,
Subdue my sins, and give me rest.

Instead of this, He made me feel
The hidden evils of my heart;
And let the angry pow’rs of ***
Assault my soul in every part.

Yea more, with His own hand He seemed
Intent to aggravate my woe;
Crossed all the fair designs I schemed,
Blasted my gourds, and laid me low.

Lord, why is this, I trembling cried,
Wilt thou pursue thy worm to death?
“’Tis in this way, the Lord replied,
I answer prayer for grace and faith.

These inward trials I employ,
From self, and pride, to set thee free;
And break thy schemes of earthly joy,
That thou may’st find thy all in Me.”

-John Newton

A Morning's Delight

2010-07-17T07:58:00.001-07:00

A caterpillar I saw last month

I decided to go outside to read my Bible this morning. No early riser today, but the temperature was still only 80, which is much better than the later, predicted 94.

So there I sat 'neath our porch in the shade, my feet propped up on our little green stool, a glass of ice water on the table next to me, and the Bible on my lap.

All around me the birds were singing--various songs both short and long, mourning dove and cardinal. I could almost imagine myself in a rain forest, under a deep canopy of green. (There are some trees overhanging our back yard.) I spotted the cardinal, a perched dab of scarlet in the branches, warbling away. Yesterday I had been inside in Mom's room, and a blue jay had smashed against the large window. Then he'd sat, tilting his head to and fro, looking up at me as if to say, "Who are you, and why can't I come in?"

And now, here was a blue jay's feather among the pebbles. Feathers are amazing things, but that's another topic that could fill a book.

As I sat, looking about, I noticed the leaves, which had fallen across the walkway and amid the flowers. Why do people think of dead leaves as ugly things to be discarded? They almost looked like rose petals strewn there. Oh, yes, I know dead leaves are not meant to last, but for now I smiled at their random cacophony, with their various shades of green and brown and yellow. Is it summer or autumn?

And then I saw one little leaf spinning wildly on its stem, hanging from a branch. Soon to fall, no doubt, but hanging on and having a merry-go-round ride.

Yes, I eventually read my Bible, but it was a delight to pause for a few minutes and admire the handiwork of the Author of that Book. . . . I try to see with fresh eyes the beauty of it all, whether it be our same old back yard, or a rock cliff at a National park. Jehovah made everything, and made it well.

Blue jay feather

Our walkway strewn with leaves

Giveaway

2010-07-14T07:55:00.001-07:00

Here is a giveaway you might enjoy. She is giving away four prizes: a feminine night-light, an e-pattern from Sense & Sensibility, a pattern and fabric from Marie Madeline Studios, and some earrings.

The Baby Conference

2010-07-12T09:01:00.000-07:00

ave you ever felt burdened by not knowing how to handle children, or not knowing if you really even wanted any? I have. God has been changing my heart, and this past week only strengthened my resolve to love children, regardless of how hard it may be, how badly I fail, or how foolish I look in the process. And it strengthened and armed me with some ideas on how to enjoy and teach children and encouraged me to trust in God. I also learned other things in regard to the glory and intricacies of God's handiwork in very tiny babies before they are born.

What was this event that brought about these results, by God's grace? The Baby Conference, which was held in San Antonio. Learn more about it here.

There were testimonies of God's amazing grace, there were friends, there was for me a new experience of volunteering, helping usher people in. I don't know that I did it well, but it was helpful to me.

Then God blessed them, and God said to them, “Be fruitful and multiply; fill the earth and subdue it; have dominion over the fish of the sea, over the birds of the air, and over every living thing that moves on the earth.” - Genesis 1:28

I believe this command (similarly repeated in the Bible several times) applies today. As my brother pointed out, the earth is far from full, yet.

There's more I could say about this, but I don't believe it's my jurisdiction to teach on such things, especially publicly, nor would I do as good a job as the people of Vision Forum. So...please check out the site I linked to, and if you're able, buy the audio (or here for mp3)! I'm sure you will be blessed!

Meeting Mrs. Verret, Lacie, and Laura for the first time in person. :)

Enjoying the fabulous talk by the Botkin family

A Visit from Family

2010-07-02T11:09:00.000-07:00

henever we get to see family it is a special blessing. And this was no exception.

My brother, Joel, his wife, Charity, and her sisters Harmony and Autumn got to spend the weekend with us a couple weeks ago, and I'm still missing their vibrant company.

We did quite a bit of talking about subjects both deep and light, looked at old photos, sang and played the piano, ate at Macaroni Grill and colored most of the paper tablecloth (I wouldn't have thought of that, but it was fun), went to a bass pro store (Outdoor World), watched a movie, had fun with nieces and nephew, visited the Alamo and Riverwalk, and enjoyed church and fellowship.

Here are a few photos from their visit.

Joel and Charity

Medieval Festival

2010-06-28T11:15:00.000-07:00

edieval festivals are quite unusual and fun. A couple weeks ago, some church friends hosted one. They did an awesome job, and we enjoyed it.

Me in my outfit--dress made by my oldest sister some years ago

Sweet friends in their lovely costumes

More sweet friends in lovely costumes

Most of the costumed attendees (some arrived later)

The food tent (quite obviously)

There was rope-climbing...

...a trebuchet!...

...a pinata...

...a cheesecake and tart contest...

...and archery! (My brother, Andrew--seen here shooting --won the competition.)

But it wasn't all just fun and games. Mr. Phillips gave a talk on the history of the trebuchet and later on chivalry, which we didn't get to hear all of, as it was pretty late and we needed to get home. I enjoyed the fellowship of saints, talking of various things.

Banana Bread and Muffin Recipes

2010-06-28T10:46:00.000-07:00

I think this is the best banana bread I've ever made. Granted, I've only tried three or four different recipes, but still....Betty Crocker's banana bread is one we've used for years but I was never satisfied with it because it was rather dry and not too flavorful. Usually Betty Crocker Cookbook has good recipes, but not so much here. One of my friends (Jenny Leding) posted a banana bread recipe that was good, very similar to this one. But I think I like this one a tiny bit better. :) I haven't compared them side by side, though. Oh, and there was a recipe that our friends/family made that was scrumptious, but when we tried it, it didn't turn out quite as well. Anyway, this is good, and maybe even better with the white chocolate chips (I haven't tried it that way, but the place I got this recipe said it was delicious). Enjoy!

Note: I used maybe a third of home-ground white wheat flour in mine. I also added chopped pecans and walnuts--you can't have banana bread without nuts! ;)

Banana Bread

Recipe from Amanda & Friends

Ingredients:

1/2 cup butter
3/4 cup brown sugar
2 eggs
2 cups mashed overripe bananas (the darker the better, practically)
1 tsp. vanilla
1 tsp. cinnamon
2 cups all-purpose flour
1 teaspoon baking soda
1/4 teaspoon salt

Optional:

1/2 cup white chocolate chips (for mini loafs)
1/4 to 1/2 cup heath chips (for mini loafs)

Directions:

In a large bowl, combine flour, baking soda and salt. In a separate bowl, cream together butter and brown sugar. Stir in eggs,mashed bananas, and vanilla until well blended. Stir banana mixture into flour mixture; stir just to moisten. Pour batter into prepared loaf pan.

Bake at 350 in preheated oven for 35 to 40 minutes for mini loafs (50-60 for regular size pan), until a toothpick inserted into center of the loaf comes out clean. Let bread cool in pan for 10 minutes, then place on a wire rack.

Tropical Apple Muffins with Cinnamon Honey Butter

Recipe from Del Sisters Kitchen.

3/4 c. milk
1/2 c. coconut oil
1/2 c. honey
1 egg
1/2 tsp. vanilla or cinnamon extract
2 c. whole wheat flour ( I used 1/3 white and 2/3 wheat)
1 1/2 tsp. baking powder
3/4 tsp. baking soda
1/2 tsp. cinnamon
3/4 c. chopped apple (I used a bit more than this, since it looked sparse)
1/4 c. macadamia nuts (I used chopped walnuts and slivered almonds)
1/4 c. coconut

In a bowl with a wire whisk, mix together the wet ingredients. Add the dry, then fold in the apple. Put batter into 9-12 greased muffin tins. Sprinkle with nuts and coconut. Bake at 375 for 20 min. Or till browned. Cool 10 min. then remove from pan. Serve with Cinnamon Honey Butter (opt).

Honey Butter

1/4-1/3 c. butter softened a little
1 T. honey
1/4-1/2 tsp. cinnamon

Mix these together and serve on split muffins!

Sin Is Covered

2010-06-15T11:35:00.000-07:00

Based on Psalm 32:1, from Spurgeon's The Treasury of David...
"Sin is covered." Every man that must be happy, must have something to hide and cover his sins from God's eyes; and nothing in the world can do it, but Christ and his righteousness, typified in the ark of the covenant, whose cover was of gold, and called a propitiatory, that as it covered the tables that were within the ark, so God covers our sins against those tables. So the cloud covering the Israelites in the wilderness, signified God's covering us from the danger of our sins. -- Thomas Taylor's "David's Learning: or the Way to True Happinesse," 1617.

I had never really made that connection of the ark and covering before, so I really liked this quote. It's amazing how many details there are that we can easily miss. I had been wondering why the top of the ark was called the mercy seat, and I guess this is why. Praise God for His grace! :)

Born from Above

2010-06-08T10:54:00.000-07:00

I got a couple of votes for showing more of my personality on my blog. I guess I'm afraid to show more of it because I have so many flaws/sins and don't want to be a bad example. But also...some of the reluctance to share about myself is due to vanity or pride. And if the Lord can be glorified through my weakness, then perhaps I should be more open.

He must increase, but I must decrease. - John 3:30

So, here's my testimony, and may God bless you through it in some way. (This is not so much about my personality, perhaps, and it wasn't what I started out to write, but here it is.)

I'm very shy, quiet, and lack knowledge in many areas. My growing up years were ones of self and pride, and still are in many ways. I played piano not to bless others, but to please myself and to gain compliments. I sometimes felt left out of things, or not connected enough with others due to my shyness and all. Fear was a big part of my life. Fear of failing, fear of looking stupid, fear of man. When I was thirteen, I felt so lonely and desperate, that I decided I wanted to serve God. Or thought I did. What I really wanted was friendship with people at church and a closer relationship with my saved family members. But I didn't really want to be conformed into the image of Christ. No. That would be too hard. Perhaps in my heart I knew my profession of faith was false, but most of the time I convinced myself it was true (perhaps Satan also blinded me into thinking it was true). So I was baptized, forced myself to play piano in church every week, etc. But the joy wasn't there. Even the friends I thought I would gain weren't there, because I wasn't reaching out to them, and I was still the same selfish, timid person, repulsing the very friendship I craved. Also I was lazy. And when anyone mentioned the end times, Christ coming in the clouds, or dying, my heart would start racing in fear. This started me wondering. Reading the Left Behind series had the same effect, like a huge black cloud had come over me, and trembling and tears probably went with it. Am I really ready?

Three or four years had gone by, and the doubts plagued me like a swarm of locusts. I kept it to myself for the most part.

My unsaved sister would ask me questions, which I should have been able to answer simply enough, but they took me off guard and I found that the "right" answer was not how I felt. She asked me if I knew I was going to heaven when I died, if it felt sure. I hesitated. I probably stammered a few words of uncertainty.

"Why don't you just admit you're not saved," she said quietly.

That took me off guard. Why had she said that? She must have seen my uncertainty in all the answers I ever gave her. Why not, indeed? My will crumbled into defeat, my deception into honesty. I told my family I didn't think I was saved. They argued and encouraged, but I knew it was hopeless.

I was free to be myself again . . . though it wasn't much different. Free to wallow in my sin and fear. In some ways I was relieved, but in some ways I was sad. My life drifted without purpose except to please myself and be respectable enough that I wasn't in trouble. I hid things from my family, guilty conscience notwithstanding. I even questioned the authenticity of the Bible. Throughout this, I still thought I wasn't doing so bad. I made excuses.

In September of 2006, my dad died after a battle with cancer. His faith was steadfast in Christ to the end, throughout all his anguish.

A couple months later my brother and I traveled to some friends' house for Thanksgiving, around 2005. We had never even met all of them in person, but knew them from online. They were so kind to open their home to us and treat us like family. They were unpretentious and stood for their convictions regardless of what we thought. The women wore head coverings all the time. One evening, my brother Joel and Charity (our friend and Joel's future wife) asked me about how I was doing. How I was really doing, or what I was thinking. Something along these lines. I forget what I said, but it got them concerned, and Charity clasped my hand and prayed.

We went upstairs to talk some more, and they showed me some Bible passages that they thought might help. They only made me feel worse, and inspired no change at that time. They asked if I'd like to be alone. I said yes, and went into a nearby room, crying it out, not sure what I wanted or if I could have a change. Could I stand for convictions, like they did, and perhaps be thought a freak by others? How could I? My heart didn't want to submit. But I feared God's wrath. So I kept sobbing and asking . . . yet not really asking. My mouth said the words, but my heart didn't. Or maybe they did in some way, but it wasn't a full desire to change or submit, only a wish for some pardon sometime. In any case, all my tears and prayers were not enough to save me. Only God's changing grace and cleansing blood could do that.

I think I was in the room for over an hour or two, until the room was pitch dark. I gave up. I stumbled out into the other room, where Joel and Charity still sat prayerfully, Bible spread between them. They looked up questioningly.

I might have mumbled something about there being no change.

Charity, knowing I didn't want to go downstairs and eat while I was in such a bedraggled condition, went to get me some food.

In all my crying out to God, perhaps I thought there must be some change, but I was like a baby kicking against the womb, unable to come out on my own, and yes . . . unwilling.

In 2006, my dad died after a battle with cancer. His faith was steadfast in Christ to the end, throughout all his anguish.

About a year later, I was watching a video online. It was linked from a friend's blog. It wasn't a perfect video, but it was about revivals in history, called Revival Hymn, and there was something about it that God used. The outright sorrow of the people in the film captured me, their abandonment of self and zeal for a new life. Perhaps the Bible verses quoted were an arrow to my heart by the Holy Spirit. I was struck by my sin and need of God, and I wanted to have that love and peace, wanted to turn from my sin. I didn't feel a lightning-bolt change, but there was a new desire that I think came at this time. Because of my past false hope, this hope was left for a while, and I only told a friend or family member or two that I thought I might be saved, and wondered if I should get baptized. I believe one of them encouraged me to stand firm in the Lord. I know my mom was supportive, but she didn't push me to get baptized. She wanted me to be sure.

It was not long before I was convinced it was a true change, and that I wanted to be identified as Christ's. So I told our pastor of the good news, and requested to be baptized. Somehow I had worried that they might not believe I was truly saved now, like the boy crying "Wolf!" . . . But they received my testimony and joyfully celebrated with me for the second time . . . but really for the first time. It was perhaps exactly a year after my father's passing.

My life in Christ grows as I see His beauty more and more. At times I start to look more at the waves and tempest and my poor wobbly feet on the water than the Savior, and I start to sink in doubt, but God pulls me back up again, just like He did for Peter.

My memory is nearly gone;
but I remember two things;
That I am a great sinner, and
that Christ is a great Saviour.

John Newton (1725-1807)
English minister and hymn writer

Poll for June

2010-06-02T15:04:00.000-07:00

The results from last month's poll:

Little House on the Prairie came in first with 9 votes! This is one of my very favorites, as well.

The Chronicles of Narnia came in second with 2 votes.

There's a three-way tie for third place. :) Ballantyne the Brave, Trixie Belden, and The Mandie Series (with 1 vote each).

Some of the other series are even better than some of these, in my opinion, so I'm sorry they didn't get any votes.

Other choices were:
The Black Stallion
The Henty Books
Anne of Green Gables
Nancy Drew
Scout (by Piet Prins)
The Peabody Series (by Jerri Massi)
The Bracken Trilogy (by Jerri Massi)
The Ivan Series by Myrna Grant
The Sugar Creek Gang

The poll for this month is now up.

Website

2010-06-01T19:55:00.001-07:00

This looks like a great web-site for mothers and daughters!

Raising Homemakers

They're also having a giveaway right now, which is always nice.

Award

2010-06-01T12:17:00.000-07:00

Thank you, Bluerose's Heart for giving me this award! I don't even know you, but I'm glad that you like my blog. I count it all of God's grace.
Now, you don't need to do the tagging thing if you don't want to, but I DO want you to know that I greatly appreciate your blogs!

"The rules to the award are: link to the person who nominated me for this award; share seven interesting things about myself; and nominate seven other beautiful bloggers."

Seven interesting (?) things about me:
1. I am the youngest in my family.
2. I sound a lot like my sister & mom (especially on the phone), but I'm quieter.
3. I would rather spend time with a few friends than a big group of them.
4. I would like to write a fictionalized account of one of my ancestors' lives.
5. I like to take walks with my family.
6. I'm one of the shyest person you've ever met or would meet (working on becoming less so).
7. I have three sisters-in-law (so far).

I'm passing this award on to:
Jennifer @ Blessed Femina
Jasmine @ Joyfully at Home
Esther @ Unknown Artist
Mia @ Aspiring Homemaker
Chantel @ Life, Laughter, and the Little Things
Caroline @ Standing in the Sunlight
Laura @ Actually Laura

Book Giveaway

2010-05-26T08:16:00.000-07:00

For history lovers and homeschool moms, here is a giveaway for a collection of stories from the past, entitled Uncover Exciting History. Ends May 31.

Photos

2010-05-22T15:35:00.000-07:00

Here's a link to my album of Big Bend Photos.

Hope you enjoy!

We had a lovely time there. Despite the skunks. ;) ...But they didn't spray, so we were safe.

Clothed with Scarlet

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How many books do you typically read in a year (take your best guess)?10-20 came out first with 5 votes (23%)30-50 and 50-70 came out second with 3 votes each (14%)20-30, 70-100, 200-250, and 300-350 are all tied for third place! (9%)One person each voted for 1-5 and 125-150.

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How many books do you typically read in a year (take your best guess)?
10-20 came out first with 5 votes (23%)
30-50 and 50-70 came out second with 3 votes each (14%)
20-30, 70-100, 200-250, and 300-350 are all tied for third place! (9%)
One person each voted for 1-5 and 125-150.